#LuVe@Galaxynet.org

2006-02-28T06:14:00.000+08:00

To: my beloved buddies...

Time have come for us all to go towards different directions, but alway remember some where some time there's alway this little family we had be4 and this bond will never be broken i believe.. as the show says believe and it will happen and disbelief leads to failure... like pei did.. i teared as i type this post... in around 10 days time... or alittle more... this little family will lose the father of the family... but this isn't gonna be the turning point... as the playful person... when my free time comes... my buddies will alway be the first to be visited... as i look back to the past, this beautiful memory of mine is very very sweet and happening for me.... for all of us.. the four special us... pei joyce and my brother ahah... so much have happened... so much have we endure through... though it's saddens me to leave the family for this bloody army thingy... my book outs will be filled with em...

things we did be4? u will definitely be very keen to join us if u were part of us... a the head of all... i bought them together teaching whatever i can to them... yet learning a very big part of my life from em... the kind of emotions dealth in it is seriously more the what words can express... all my heart broken days were filled with em? happy days as well... and i am so sure without fail that when i'm down... i'll be there for them as well as they will be there for me... although i'm the evil king... my 3 other prince and princess are evil too ^^ we do evil things together and enjoyed being evil...

be4 i end this... i have to say this... u three have rocked my world and have certainly become part of my family... without blood relations we are as close as 4 siblings. pardon myself for making them my family without noticing. but i believe they would gladly wanna be mine ^.^ as for the rest ... those that left us... too bad for em... but i must thank them for being part of the beautiful memory of ours... without them that 2 years would be less then 730 days of boring days... also as i grow i will alway love to look back and see these three forever in my life creating nonsense and joy for me... and everyone within this small little family of ours... we are now officially name a-a-p-j =) we can go the other way around which sounds alot better like j-a-a-p
yo yo jappy LOL... sound kind of kiddish but we are the j-a-a-p ! LoL~ guess what alway there's a start there must be an end... i'mma end this special post which is very specially dedicated to the three of em...

guys... alway remember.... when things don't go the right way... come to aN for the wrong way...

stay together alway....

uR beloved king

xaO`aN

2005-12-08T00:56:00.000+08:00

o.o been long since i visit this place... memories... hehe... had a great time these few weeks... i ain't got much things to say...

aN

2005-11-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

i give up... but i'm strong hehe... life been good.. got a new phone.. getting it in 4 days... hehe

aN

2005-10-13T01:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm guess i should be at least here to say we broke off? at least to the wall i have alway been ranting at... been looking back these two three weeks... sad to say... i admit my mistake... and have made drastic changes... but it doesn't change a thing... at least for now... i gave myself a year... a year so tat i can be a better man... a year to give it all up... and a year to give some other a chance... maybe this chance will be hurting to the other one... because the one i truely miss and love is her... and i will definitely give the one up for her love again... can call mi heartless or a bastard... i do not care... one has to be ruthless to win... and i wan to win...

things tat i wanna learn :

be even more independant..

to not give my partner stress while giving in my most effort...

to achieve peace of mind... and not think too much...

tat's all i guess... i have been learning... making progress while not noticing...

but well it's at least another 353 days.... but i won't give up... it's this love tat is making mi move on... well i muz seriously say... it has made mi awaken... know wat i should do... if given a second and last chance.... things will definitely change... guess i'll have to take the chance... i tol dher i don't wan to be her friend... tat's because i don't wanna have to see her and not being able to express my love... but everytime i see her getting online.. it hurts... every time i see her friendster profile... it hurts more... and i know if someone else enters her life... my world will come crashing down... but it's ok... i'm not gonna give up... she said it's impossible to have another relationship with mi in future... guess i'm either dumb or stupid to try again... but nevertheless... miracle do happen if i believe... ha.. alright i'm heading off to bed... seriously.. i hope ppl who reads this pray for mi... but i guess there isn't any =)

2005-09-25T02:45:00.000+08:00

hmmm back to rant it all out... seriously life suck these few weeks... but at the same time life seriously is sweet... bitter quarrels along the way yet allowed mi to understand her more... yet sometimes things happen that i seriously don't like... and is still happening... decided to change myself a little... maybe major to ppl... decided to care less to everything.... decided not to be such a good bf anymore... decided to let her do the start... decided not to decide on anything... why does all my effort seems like water tat runs down the drain into the vast sea... ocean or watever shit u can say it could be... why do i seem less more important then her friends... less important then anything... feel like a small shit tat no body care... she say i'm important and she care... i can see tat once in a blue moon... but the rest of the freaking fucking time i'm just a option to her.... when she's free i'm then the one... am i dead last to u? when everything is gone.. i'm left? the left overs? fuck tat... to hell with it... from now on... my ego will come back... no more mr goody aN anymore... because u're cruel to mi... because i don't wan to be cruel to myself no more... i will be myself... the one tat doesn't care.. the one tat live his life as usual even if the sky drops.. if one day i'm so so damn gone... well don't regret.... because u have just lost someone who have done all his best to please u... and someone who have respected and given in too... yeah yeah u care bout our first month... to hell with tat.. it's one month and one freaking day because u're tired... if u seriously care bout our first month... won't have to even postpone it... won't have to give excuses because u're tired.... i'm hurt... so hurt... my heart is stolen yet dropped... broken into pieces.... now i will pick my heart pieces by pieces back... and u'll have to pick them too.... and if i picked them all up... it means game over... time out... which means i have given up... given up waiting... given up being the man of ur life... because u don't even freaking care... alright no one reads this... so forget it... life goes on without u or with u... nites... baby i do love u... but do love mi too because i'm ur's not ur friends... caring so much for them don't change how we are...

2005-08-21T03:30:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! today 20th august 2005... i can say it's the sweetest night i ever went through since 1987 31/12 8.00a.m. LoL~ she's mine! mine~~~ MINE~~ MINEE!!! MInEEEEE~ :P had a great night.... baby wore really nice? basically for mi? met her up at batok... although it's very difficult for mi to hold tat bunch of flowers from tampines to batok... but i made it there! gave her the flowers and got in a cab.... along the way... got scolded for the cigg. smell on my hands... so senstive nose... but nvm... lol.. stupid uncle didn't fetch us to the place we wanted... but it's near... baby and mi took a short walk... and stopped opps. the lighthouse... sat down and chat for around 20mins... then went to the lighthouse for dinner.... restaurant name is called cosy bay... quiet and romantic... baby and mi went to the TOP lol... orders dinner.... but she only ate fries... wanna piak her pi gu liao eat so little... then chat and joke until around 9? 2 hours went by so so so so fast.... then walked back towards indoor stadium... sat at where we were be4.... short chat... and here comes the most beautiful moment..... grabbed out the pressie from my pocket... and stood infront of her... wanted to kneel down... but she die die also grab on to mi... say "DON'T KNEEL DOWN!!!" lol.... alright gave her the present... she opened it... and saw the pressie... asked mi to put it on for her... and she took out a bottle of stuff from her bag... a bottle of hand made straws msges... so touch... her fingers got burnt along with the straws... *heart broken* decided to kiss her... and there my sister called... -_- bad timing eh? omg... lol... hug and kiss for a while... sat around to chat... and decide to move on... walked to look for atm... and saw a bus... then decide to go town... but when we reached the bus stop... we decided to go home instead....so i sent her home... took 2 hours of bus... chat and hold each other... baby i'll nv wan to let go... and reached our destination... but PEI WEN CAME!! monster of the day... snatched my baby away... awww.. ends our meeting... went home by bus... and msged her... wore the ring and it fitted just right... i'm so glad it did... chat but PEI WEN the monster came into the picture.... didn't really get to chat with my baby... she went to wash PEIWEN'S hair!!! no chance to talk to my baby already... but called to have a short short chat... then let her go to sleep... then got home... missing my baby so much... really so much... wish i had more time today... alright i guess this is end of my post... hope to write more... but it's secret u know? :P ok i'm gone... if there's a soul tat reads... thank you so much

2005-08-15T04:54:00.000+08:00

AhAr~~ CALL MI CRAZY~~~ wooooooooohoooooooooooo so happy.... keke =x =x not telling u ppl or anyone that reads.. dbout so anyway... ahAr~ JUST WANNA WRITE HAPPY TIMES LIKE THIS!!! MY BOAT HAVE DOCKED~~~ KEKEKEKEKEKEKKEKEKE i'm going on! not waiting anymore... SATURDAY SATURDAY SATURDAY~~ HAPPY~~ KEKEKEKEKE lalalalala crap #%#^&$%&*$&^$@$#!% hohoho so happy.... LoL~~~~~ BTH~~~ happy until cannot stop ~~~ LOL~!~!!~~!~!!~~!

2005-07-24T03:41:00.000+08:00

Some say love, it is a river That drowns the tender reed Some say love, it is a razor That leaves your soul to bleed Some say love, it is a hunger An endless aching need I say love, it is a flower And you its only seed It's the soul afraid of dreaming, That never learns to dance And the soul afraid of waking, That never takes the chance It's the one, who won't be taken Who cannot seem to give And the soul afraid of dying, That never learns to live When the night has been too lonely And the road has been too long When you feel that love is only For the lucky and the strong Just remember in the winter Far beneath the bitter snow Lies the seed that with the sun's love In the spring becomes the rose

2005-07-16T16:47:00.000+08:00

Pls tell the person.. Gal or Boy!!! Bu yao hou hui....
BOY: I need someone to talk to ..
GiRL: I`m alwayz here for you.
BOY: I know.
GiRL: Whatz wrong?
BOY: I like her *s0o* much..
GiRL: Talk to her.
BOY: I don`t know.. she`ll never like me.
GiRL: Don`t say that. You`re amazing.
BOY: I just wanna tell her how I feel ..
GiRL: Tell her then.
BOY: But i afraid she won`t like me.
GiRL: How do you know that?
BOY: I can just tell.
GiRL: Well, just tell her.
BOY: What should I say?
GiRL: Tell her how much you like her.
BOY: I tell her that daily.
GiRL: What youu mean?
BOY: I'm alwayz with her. I love her.
GiRL: I know how you feel. I have the same problem. But he`ll never like me.
BOY: Wait. Who do you like?
GiRL: Ooh, some boy..
BOY: Ooh, she won`t like me either.
GiRL: She does.
BOY: How do you know.. ?
GiRL: Because who wouldn`t like you?
BOY: You..
GiRL: You`re wrong. I love you.
BOY: I love you too.
GiRL: .... so are you going to talk to her?
BOY: I just did.

2005-07-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

FUCK MAN!!!! MY POST!!! GONE~~~~~~~~~~~ haiz.... y are things all so messed up.... y y y y y.... things were going well this morning.... yet y are things going all wrong...

To: pei, ahah, joyce, daphne

thanks for being there for mi as a friend even though i have done things tat have created so much problem for u guys... without u all... i wouldn't be who i am today... without u all i wouldn't have had so much great memories... without all these memories... i would still be the lousy and useless person.... i miss u all... i miss the days we had.... i miss the laughter from u all... i miss the stuff we did together.... but all these things wouldn't go back to wat it was... i wish we could go back to old times... and do the stuff we did... sing laugh and do anything we could... things are going well for me... good grades good life and stuff... but i wat i really wan is the type of life we had together... having fun with all our might...the only thing i can do now is to apolergize for my mistakes and problems... thank you u all for being there still...

Past

what i have been doing? ha... studying like some mad scientist... also working... sigh... so much have happened since the last post... i dont know and wouldn't wan to start writing them... i hope to let bygone be bygone....

Now

now? unhappy sad... disappointed... going crazy.... ha sorry... i know all these i shouldn't have... because i know wat's going on... yet it's something i can't control.... no more ciggs. no more alcohol. but yet i'm still sober... i wanna be drunk and high... so i can forget everything... at this moment... i wish tat everything would be still like it was in the morning... i knew something like tat was gonna happen... yet i'm still quite disappointed.... it's alright guys... i won't kill myself or hurt myself...

what i wan someone to know....

Hold my hand and guide mi through... i wanna hold ur hand but u moved away... i wanna guide u through yet u wanna walk in the dark... i wanna be the one... sigh... Leaf departure is because of Wind pursuit. Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?
i know it hurts... i know it's hard... and i know u feel helpless about it....
right now all i can do is to pray hard and hope for the best... but neither the less.. i hope u are happy... u know who u are....

signing off

aN

2005-06-25T03:39:00.000+08:00

What can I say.

I'm missing this place.

I'm missing the times.

I'm missing the 4 of us.

-pei

2005-05-02T01:35:00.000+08:00

hmmmm i'm sorry to everyone... i'm sorry to myself... have not even blogged once? since upteen weeks? seriously i feel so sad... just by looking at the channel... and the blog.... although i see the problem... i'm just too lazy to do something about it... sigh....

hmmm watever... let's talk about life... these few weeks... gone through alot more... omg... someone coming in my life.... then left... then come... then left again? holy shit... this is irritating... then now my boat have arrive.... yet i do not know whether i should board or not... i can't read her mind... i can't show her my heart yet... it means i'll be giving it to her... when u give ur heart to the person u like... not only the person can make u happy... also she can hurt u...

i msged her... "it's ok if u don't accept mi... just don't stress out just thinking whether to accept mi or not..." u know y? cos i didn't know wat's on her mind... who cares yeah? wat goes around comes around.. wat goes up muz come down... tat means to mi at least... if she don't accepts mi... someone else will... if she does accepts mi.... someone else got to wait then.... i'm just back from supper with my sis and her friend... kind of bored yeah... been aiming at my sis for the whole time... my sis's friend is a fine guy... quiet but sociable... although i'm sociable... doesn't mean i socialise with everyone... waahahaha :P

ok i'm really tired... gonna knock off already... will be back to blog more often if possible... up coming events will kill mi... for 7 months i'll be in a business diploma course... while working part time... which means i have to work double hard for my studies.... so i beg u guys understand my time constraint... it's gonna kill mi... i got no life soon... -_- work study work study... hope i can pull out some times just to enjoy myself abit....

I GOT NO LIFE~~~ GOD CAN U GIVE MI A 48HOURS DAY?

From ur ever powerful king

xaO`aN

2005-04-11T09:49:00.000+08:00

I Am....Accept Me As I Am... Who Am I ?

The Paintbrush

I kept my paintbrush with me, wherever I go,
In case I need to cover up, so that the real me doesn't show.
I'm so afriad to show me; afraid of what you'll do.
I'm afriad you'll might laugh or say mean things; afraid I might lose you.

I'll like to remove all the layers, to show you the real, true me,
But I want you to try to understand; I need you to like what you see.
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes, I'll remove the coats real slow,
Please understand how much it hurts, to let the real me show.

Now that my coats are all stripped off, I feel naked, bare and cold,
And if you still find me pleasing, you are my friend, pure and gold.
I need to save my paintbrush though, and hold in my hand,I
need to keep it handy in case someone doesn't understand.
So please protect me, my dear friend, and thanks for loving me true,
And please let me keep my paintbrush with me, until I love me, too.

- posted by ahah

2005-03-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

Guess whose here? aN forever la... keke... hmmm it's been long since i last blogged... many things have happened these few days... many things tat i do not wanna mention.. i'm blogging actually because i'm dead bored... i'm waiting for time to pass... i wanna do something... i'm not sure whether she's coming... but i'll just wait...

addiction ; heart and soul

haha taken from sparkle's msn nick... lol she's steaming her head off now!! LOL... who cares.. sue mi for copy right plz.. :P

hmmmm i'mma get my room renovated... u know? hehe my mummy ordered my bed instantly tat day... it's a rusty red top and black cushion... i'mma get my room walll painted with something... something full of memories for us... a wall with all the signature of my friends... all the sign offs of my friend... i'll nv ever forget #Luve@galaxynet.org... i guess although i had more happy times be4... but u guys make my day... forever friend yo? keke u ppl fill up my life... with dull colours as well.. but without these dull colours... we won't grow up to be mature adults... ppl like ahah with no positive attitude... pei pei with crazy thoughts... joyce with a proud status... ian with powerful cannon power... yup... all u peepx made my day...

2005-03-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

This is Pei, special entry.

Joyce, Xiao An and AhAh are the most important people in my life, of course with the exception of my parents. Its just that I never told them that before. And was I wrong to do so. Week by week I feel that we`re drifting further and further apart. Reasons due to time constrain..Joyce and I are busy with school, while An and Ah have too much time to spend. Naturally they`ll look for new companies.. Which explains the reason of substitution, and all the jealously I`m eating

Due to this factor, it also added to the cause why I had a big argument with Ahah. I was really feeling paranoid and needed to get some infomation from him. But he refused to give in... All because of 1 promise he made to this stranger whom had met for just 1 day and barely talked to him. His friend, he claims. So what am I excatly to him? All the moments the 4 of us spent together just means nothing to him? All the phonecalls that we had together can be beaten by just 1 promise to a nobody? I`m shocked. Utterly disappointed. I trusted him, which is why I approached him. To think that it all goes the wrong way.

I`ve made a vow to myself 6 months ago, not to shed tears for anything no matter what. I guessed I lost my form today. In fact, I already lost form yesterday. The impact of depression from them yesterday made me shed 2 droplet of tears. Both for the friendship of An and AhAh. And today I couldn`t help it anymore. I didn`t fight the tears. This time is serious shit... it doesn`t sound like any other arguments before. All I can say is that I wouldn`t shed tears for just anybody.

Pei`

2005-03-09T00:41:00.000+08:00

Tell me a lie... i don't care... just to be with u...

2005-03-07T14:30:00.000+08:00

i'm selfish
i'm a jerk...
u said u love me..
read tat u were seeing another guy
after a day
my heart aches for one purpose
whether it's worth or not
i don't care
how could u
u made mi so jealous
i wan to be the one u are seeing
i wan to be the one u yield for
my tears are dry
then came the rain
my face is all wet
i'm having so much problems
i got no one to turn to
left behind by someone
i'm nobody
not important at all
i put on a facade
i put on a mask
i put on a fake side
wat should i do ?
after u said to let u go
and u come back trying to be friends
u are leaving
i wan to leave with u
but u wouldn't let mi
all i can do is to watch u turn around
turn around....
and walk away from me
forever.
u blocked mi there
i'm shutting myself down
closing the heart of mine
key is with u
i can't open it
it's locked
i wan u to be the one opening it
will u?
no i guess
i spoilt everything
nothing will heal now
nothing will move
colours are gone
food have gone tasteless
lights are out
everything seem so dull
smoking doesn't help
drinking doesn't help
plz tell mi u love mi once more
plz tell mi u wouldn't leave mi in tat lonely place
plz be the only stranger to guide mi out
i prayed
i begged
i wished
i hoped
i look forward to u coming...
my broken heart...

so it begins to bleed

2005-03-06T05:21:00.000+08:00

WU WO 我突然觉得有点怕爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开我们的想法落差
我的爱是说停不能停已经弄的不能说是
曾经
也可说出我是错的爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱我不再
去执拙我是谁我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情左右你我

而哭泣都是因为爱也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你这网里我也撑著
拼了命的守著

it's 19 day... end of it... whose not making the effort here there again... playing mi around? it saddens mi...

Endless Road

The truth is tearing up my heart
I can't recognize this place
The endless road without a stop sign
Can't even find a stranger this time
Why am i still holding back my tears
In this loneliness there's nothing to fear
Every chord still seems a wonder
How we could be together
Every time i ask if this would be the last
Why am i still talking to myself
Hoping you will have the the keys to my cell
Every song might calm the weather but it just draws me deeper
How do i get out of this I think i never will
A crystal forming in the eye Maybe this would be the last
The winding pathdown my face
Till i begin to taste the bitterness inside...

The endless road i'm taking now... when will i find the exit? when will i find the right path... when do i get a relationship tat i can make a effort? and someone tat makes an effort with me?

"i wanna tell u i love u for the last time"
"why tell mi u love mi when u will no longer be there for me anymore?"

i can nv express myself with words anymore... all i can is use these songs...
Why bring mi to heaven and u are ready to push mi down to hell but not earth...
why bring mi love without pain and leave when love hurts ?

Guide me out of this place... hold my hand... give mi light... offer mi the cure to this pain... and don't ever let this loneliness bring mi back to this place....

I'm so useless...

2005-03-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

16days... another relationship ends? i'm not sure... it seems within mi and lyn there seems to be a trust problem... we had a so called quarrel... which didn't turn out well... went to sleep without a answer... she wanted to reconsider on our relationship... it was finally morning... woke up... the next moment one msg came in... "good morning : lyn" didn't know wat's going to be next... she didn't leave... for at least the next 6 - 7 hours? then i finally got off bed... was chatting with her online? and there we go again... it's another cold talk and then i sort of asked to call and waited for her to msg so i can call her... then she msged... "i need some time alone..." there goes... haiz... here a song lyrics for u guys...

曲：光良 | 词：光良 | 编：
忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了
我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
我要变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
我会变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里幸福和快乐是结局
一起写我们的结局

i have nothing much to type here anyway... don't feel good... and my results are 30points... going for appeal... tat's all

Heart bleeds and u are the torn which can close up the gap...

2005-02-26T03:54:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning... it's 4 in the morning? feeling very down and lost... don't know wat will be on monday... What will be tml? when mum knows i killed my Bao bei... aNd wat will be of my bao bei lappy... it's all my fault... y muz i touch on the pc and also try to repair the aircon at the same time... it's all the aircon's fault... although i know i shouldn't push blame to it... i'm sorry... hun seems more sad then i do... because i'm unhappy and it affects her alot... i'm sorry... didn't mean to be like tat... but it my favourite thing now... and i just can't seem to put the thing behind... the thing is my hard earn money... it's my effort to get mummy to get it... damn the aircon... still not keeping mi cool... i am to be blame... dragging the cables... and not taking notice tat my lappy is there.... haiz... but nvm... just hope tat the repair will make it better... or at least to wat it is this morning... awwwww well forget it... if it doesn't i'll still love it the same... maybe a little less? not sure though... i reckon i would...

Today woke up at 8? just to clean my room and wait for the aircon service man to come... they didn't really make my aircon real good... but made it worst... the internal part froze... everything froze... ice blocks everywhere... until mi and ahah have to do a total clean up internally... now it just keeping the room cool... not cold... ya back to the service man... they took the whole thing down... and had dirty black water dripping on my floor! i just mop it be4 they came... and they actually made it dirty again... they cleaned the fan and removed the clot water... but it wasn't cooling at all... after they left... it was slighty cooling... so i went to sleep... who in hell knows the thing went crazy... froze... turn my room into a microwave oven... cooking mi on my bed... woke up by the heat... decide to clean it... be4 tat i on my laptop... it was on my bed... i decide to bring the whole set down... so brought the tv down to my bed... who knows all the cable tangles together... dragging wat ever was on the top... smashing on to my lovely laptop... it was perfect! but it was destroy by the farking aircon... maybe my fault for being careless... haiz... switching my laptop off.... i placed it on the table... and feel so shock... wanted it to be a nightmare... wanted it to be a dream... wanted everything to be fake... but i know it wasn't... so i started tearing the set... bought it down to the table stand... saw water pump not working... fed up at the same time... i used a puny screw driver... and made holes on the plastic... didn't know where the strengh came from... i just made holes... maybe when i'm angry i'm stronger? placed the set back... seeing the water dripping out... feeling better... but the air wasn't cool at all... then WATEVER~ fark the set... went to check on my lappy again... tried to put the button back and remove the scratches.... wasn't helpful at all... so it was decided... REPAIR! anyway i had warranty on the run... so forget about doing things my way... send it back! called ahah when he was still asleep... made sure he wakes up and accompany mi to best denki... lucky to have brought the safty 5 warranty... i could cialm accident charges... not a 100% but it was more of a policy... so did all the things i had to do... got out of the house... and went straight... went through all the form filling... and left the place... kevin tee grab mi from behind... lol.. like a brother... comment on my hair... said it fit mi nicely... =) no mood to be happy though... so left best and went for my first meal... hungry... but these few days... i hardly eat... for a few weeks... i have been eating like 1/4 meal? of wat i have ordered? unlike mi though... then we sort of had no place to go? so ahah came over to my house... i played some games... and then was like so fed up with the aircon? so we tear everything down... and clean it... the whole generator was made of ice this time... nothing could enter ? no air means no air in... so there goes...and then found out the service man didn't clean it properly... they didn't vaccumm the filter... it was so dirty tat when i use the vaccumm... the water turn black... but the aircon sort of became slighty cooler... hope it last for like a few weeks? when my mum gets her bonus... i can get it changed... as well as my room renovated... was discussing how to tear the furniture of my room... but no conculsion... then went off for some tea... LAAA TEH~ not coffee... it's teh ta leh... no mood to laugh though... =) guess i will feel better after my sleep? hope so...

Yesterday nite... was chatting with hunnie... about her freedom her parents give her... guess she didn't really made her stand... tat's y her parents couldn't trust her or rather didn't think tat she could take care of herself... i guess this shows tat her parents are over protective... it's all against time... u can't change them over the night... man man lai k... dearie love ya... think ur parents also love ya lots too... they don't wan u to be hurt... =) ok then i guess i'll be heading for bed... not in the mood to stay awake... today ahah is gonna get his passport... hope my parents would bring him along... to malaysia at least? poor guy nv ever left sg be4... swim to indo. plz.. ok gone with the wind*

Poor xiao lao po... i miss u... don't die on me...
Old da lao po... still strong and going....
Beautiful Hunnie... love ya lots... miss ya k =)

I'll be alright...

2005-02-23T01:59:00.000+08:00

Thanks hunnie for the picture... muackzZz... xie xie ni... love u lots... hehe... now she's in the toilet bathing ba... very slow neh~ wait until wan die ler~ hee... then neh... also haven been blogging these few days... too tired ler... don't have enough sleep omg... hehe... today is my 15th day rest ler~ weeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... as i know hun. more and more... i find out alot of things about her... good things of course... don't wan tell u muahaha :P also these few days having alot of conflict with my parents... they just don't understand how i feel... =( it's about my o's results releasing soon... it will most probably be on 25th or 28th... then my family is going to genting on the 24th and coming back on 26th... i can cope with going to genting... but i wouldn't feel good at all... =( nvm... last few days inculding today... i went around to check out the furniture tat are gonna be place in my room after i remove the old ones... got these pictures i like and hunnie will host it for mi... right now i'm on my bed listening to Lee hom's new album... to all plzz... do not download his songs! support him or else don't deprive him hor! hehe now the song playing is Forever Love... really sweet song omg... back from scolding ppl in my channel... seems no one helping me... sad =( lol... now i feeling so full leh... gonna quit fagging! promise hunnie and myself... so will try my best! then results is coming out leh... very scare... but i just don't show it out... then hunnie gonna be moving in Tp's hostel if she enters tp... then would be closer to me ler... hehe... now so sian... tummy not feeling real well leh... omg... today is jaffe's birthday... wish him all the best in RP ba... hope he won't make the same mistake again... then now leh... so tired.... but gonna be going out to have a drink with jaffe... i'm going to continue later... hehe...

(Okay, this is lyn typing.)
aN's on the phone with me now.
He's having a not so good tummy
(nt the runs thou)
and he still insists on going drinking.
> )):
Which is bad of course.

Stubborn-headed dearie of mine.
(:

Okay then I shan't say more
and host the pics for him.

the bed ((:

the bed #2

the side display shelf
(this is the nicer one
I swear.)

the side display shelf #2

the sofa bed

the side couch

the sofa !

I'm done.
> ((:

Note:
aN likes to muack me on the phone.
>[:

He's nt going drinking anymore.
YAAY.
Good boy.
*pat pat*

Been a week since we've gotten tgt.
Things have been going on fine.
Minus the excessive late nights
we've been ploughing through.

Oh yeah,
Results comming out on
the 25th.
Good lord, have blessings
on aN.

Hope he'll get into the course he wants.
I think he's able too !
> (:

Anws,
Like Dar has said;
I might be moving in !
Oh oh, the apartments are really
nice.
*grins*

Yups,
that's all fer the night/morn.

Btw,
I'm gonna make Dar read !
LA LA LA.
((:

Okay, i'm a mean gf I know.
-sighs-
But it's fer his own welfare.

Aights, i'm stopping.
Dar's on the line,
I'm putting him on hold for way too long.
My bad aye.

sugar dreams dude and dudettes.
>[:

muaccks ! (:

2005-02-20T08:47:00.000+08:00

Holla DarDar,
> ((:

Did up these few pics
for you.
Hope you'd like it.

Nissan Sunny LE
(Scroll left pls ! Didn't want to resize it.)

You didn't sleep again
last night.
> )):

Many many hearts.

[lyn]

Ps:
thanks fer the post
*hugs*

2005-02-20T06:16:00.000+08:00

Bloggie~ hehe 6 in the morning typing hope u won't mind... muaahahaha... gonna head for malaysia later... for breakfast... hehe... bak kut teh... malaysia de very nice!!! hehe... then should be heading to my aunt's house to visit her... by right we should have gone to malaysia today... but ah choy kor kor nv pick up phone... so in the end... didn't go... but we went to check out some cars... omg!!! i really like nissan's super saloon luxury edition!!! so nice~ omg.... now got to depend on mummy... hehe but i like our current car's engine... and exterior... but i like nissan's interior~ how? muahaha hack care la... now i feeling very sleepy... but i cannot sleep!!! muz finish typing and also going out... promised lao po to make blogging a habit =X so i'll do it for today... and tml and tml and tml and tml... etc.etc. muahahaha... today i went to this Pap dinner... so dumb... service sucks... food not good... and alot la... but nvm... kill time also... then head home straight... be4 i went for the dinner... i went to po po house... she's sick! omg... argh how? she very stubborn.. ask her to rest she don't wan... in the end manage to ask her to rest after new... then i left... tonite i'll be going to ritz carlton... for dinner... hehe very nice place... really hope can bring lao po go there... hee :P got chance ba... my eyes are closing! i have been chatting with lao po on da phone for i think two weeks... going to k.o. ler... muz rest more... omg... also hope lao po rest more... because she's sick... until she's ok i can't meet her! so hope she get well soon... omg.. cannot close u stupid eyes... or else will feel very tired later on... ok ba... mi wanna go bath and brush ler... so can prepare to leave asap.. and come back asap... then can sleep all i wan till nite falls... hao ba... see u guys tonite!!! muacks to all and smoochies to lao po... hehe gone*

2005-02-19T05:24:00.000+08:00

Thanx dear for changing the template... muack... she took alot of effort to actually change this template... this is not a copy and paste template... so kindly give comment to us @ solar_boi@hotmail.com or cuzzicemi@hotmail.com ...

Today: went to rp... didn't really stayed long... was sweating so badly just to get to the place... and who knows... the compound is so crap... small and almost hopeless to me... then when we left... jennifer suey mouth... say wat wan to rain ler... next moment the dogs and cats came down... walk quite far and finally found one huge umbrella... hehe... and finally got into a cab... Finally! ROAR~!~!~!~!... then went to pasir ris went jen la... see her ke lian muahahaha... kidding =) she's a great friend... like pei but pei is very calculative! muahahaha read this hor! pei is very calculative meaow meaow... si bei cat la.... then joyce too fierce ler... ahah too cb ler... ian too pao ler... and lastly tooya too kpo/pao also... so jen consider ok ler... LOL!!! my dearie is the best... muack... then mi and ahah went to the food court... he order himself a bowl of milk with fried fish! suppose to be name fried fish meat soup... LOL!!! but the milk taste too strong... so crappy! then i ordered myself a bowl of pig organ soup... mmmmmmmmm nicer! :P taste perfect but the preserved veg... nv wash properly... got smell de! meaow... pui... then we went to coffee bean to find jen... she's working there duh? lol... made her our maid of the day!!! loLxx and she treat ahah drink leh... :( i paid for my expresso~ double shot... weeeeeeeeee no wonder can't sleep la.... morning 5 + still blogging... thanx to lao po... pei mi chat on the phone... and pei mi watch wwe... royal rumble! muahahaha.... then chat with mi... talk abit naughty nah! cannot ar... =x ROaR~ nvm... tat's for us to know and not for u to find out... muahahaha... then she was asking mi to blog... actually didn't wanna blog and go to sleep straight away... but i'll nv break a promise though... hehe... today muz blog until keyboard spoil!!! hehe... then tml heading to malaysia... for a day though... then thursday heading to genting... for three days... gonna miss u peepx alot~ hope mummy allows mi to get a digital cam~ so i can zi lian more ler~ hehe... tml go psycho mummy get the camera~ kekekeke.... my hair is getting worst~ very dry ler neh... how? go shave my hair!!! NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol... but i liked the colour though... i guess it makes mi look more sporty i reckon... just now i went ahah house wor... lol... bully him as alway one la... then downloaded some songs... and burn a disc of songs... came home shortly around 11? rush home to pee and watch tv with lao po... was chatting with a friend though... in msn... kind of neglected lao po...sorry dear... guys can only do one thing at one time... was concentrating how to reply... =X hope u'll understand... ya i guess this is where i'm gonna stop.... guess it's tml nite i'll continue more to update u guys about my one day trip to malaysia... muackie to all... and smoochies to lao po muahahaha...

2005-02-18T15:34:00.000+08:00

LAO GONG ! !
> (((:

Hmmms.
Finally did up yer template.
-grins-

Took me godzillion years to do it up
So you did better be nice and make
blogging a habit aye ?
-hugs-

Aiights,
I'd state my last words of the day thens.
((:

i <3 you*

-many many kisses-

[ lyn ]

2005-02-17T04:17:00.000+08:00

FARK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cb i type very long ler... cb fingers don't know press wat thing... all gone...!!! fed up... nvm... type again nor... haiz... QI SI WO LER~~~ nvm.... RRGGGG ARGH~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!! one day i'll kill myself... too angry... or else killed by ahah...

Life!
my life is so slack now... nothing to do... everyday wake up bath brush eat chat sleep repeated process though... aiya dulan... tml then blog ba...

aN - Lyn

2005-02-14T03:06:00.000+08:00

Right now i'm at pasir ris fisher man village.... hmmm the surrounding... atmosphere really very relax... so i decided to start blogging... 6 beers 2 sharing... me and ahah... seems like very boring... but we joking around and chatting... which is wat i was expecting... beer is kind of expensive.... but nvm... haha... hardly have time to come down here and have a drink with my close friends.... if i had a gf tat would be good... can bring her here on monday... lol but so sad no have.... muahahahaa.... but who cares also... single rox too... alot of couple here.... haha... below is the song lyrics i wanted to put in for a very long time... from Jolin Tsai - Ni Hai Ai Wo Ma....For this plz use unicode for ur encoding...
夜里传来雨的声音轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想到你那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了我的眼睛
爱情需要一些呼吸偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里
你还爱我吗一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
敢情的路总让人好无助我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福
你还爱我吗一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你你还爱我吗

Ahah says here got four tree... yellow,blue and green... woot lol lamer~.... my pc if going down in about 45 mins... lol... should be enuff for mi to finish typing today's blog already... y did i put this song lyric? no idea also... just liked the song lyrics.... haha i alway disturb yi wei.... msg her NI HAI AI WO MA? she say nope LOL~~~ so sad right instant rejection leh... but nvm.... everyone has a choice... and i won't force anyone... ever.... here many pretty girl leh... waiteress LOL!!!! peep peep* muahahaha nan ren de ben xing ma... who cares... look only not ons... and i hate ons... :P omg... getting more and more hungry leh... stupid la.... still haven order yet... then started drinking ler... ok la i'll end now and continue later....

2005-02-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

right now on the train... haiz very long time nv blog ler ma? cos these few nights playing war craft... and chatting with Lyn... cannot concentrate on typing ma... so nv blog... also still very very sick now... my cough is getting worst.... but seems like it's because of my smoking... but if i can control for a few days... maybe cough will get better... just now went to play lan with elmo... be4 tat went to find ian... cannon as alway... so sian... LoL now on the train... but don't feel like playing any song... later kanna scold lol... also today went back to best denki earlier... to pai nian with them... recieved on hong bao from sandy gan ma... weeeeeeee she treats mi really good wor... haiz... really feel like going back to best denki to work... but it seems like i really hate sales job now... LoL... tml i'll start to find job ler.. hope can find one after valentine day... so on valentine day i can still enjoy myself... LoL... valentine day with who? my friends lor... no gf also... lol!!! many ppl thinks tat i got gf... LoL don't know y... no gf also good ma... gf for wat... can eat anot? girls got bf good la... got guy teng... guys got gf... is bei torture LOL!!!.... cough cough... reach aljunied ler... go eat durian???? lol... cannot!!! coughing still eat... then right now going back to tampines to watch a mvie and also to eat my dinner... yesterday i watched constantine... alone... lol fun leh... but the show like not bad... effect wise ba.... but story line.... not good... now i act pro looking around and typing LOL!!! sure got alot of typo de leh... just now at best denki... see many ppl i feel so sad leaving them... but i just don't like sales line... so nvm... cough cough* hope i can get well soon.... tat day ahah called fang yu.. or rather i used my phone to call her and make ahah talk... then ahah so disappointing one... make her say so many hellos... then ppl sure don't like one ma... aiya these few days i getting more and more angry easily... y not idea... maybe i'm sick... or rather i start to lose my control on temper again... think i shouldn't let my anger take mi over ever again... i'll try to make tat happen... muahahahaa ok i'll stop here later then continue again if i'm free...now at mac..omg eating mac spicy leh...pray won't affect my throat...bardie hell... muz wait at mac or ahah... one hours leh... he go to temple with father to pray... i went bugis tat day... and had been praying these days... because i'm so afraid tat my o's will fail... how leh... scary leh... i think i'll jump around if i pass... and cry if i fail... lol.. bring tissue on the day... today is kind of boring... first someone buff mi... say wan go out with mi on valentine day... but in the end buff mi... haiz... hate liers.... ok la i go play game while waiting for him...

2005-02-07T01:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm bloggy... i'm very sad... today i quitted from best denki... as i walk out... tears started to gather... but pluck up the courage and push them back... i feel so sad... after being with all the ppl there for two months... i left... feel very sad now... although i'm sick... i feel more worst then sick... i miss everyone there... expecially cashier sandy... the nicest person there.... coughing as i type... i still wanna continue... i don't know y... suddenly pick up the hobby of writing my feelings here... as not many ppl read i'm happy too... because only those who care will read.... i didn't really wan to leave.... but i know sooner or later i'll still leave... by the time i really had to leave... i know i would be weeping infront of them... i don't wan~ i don't wanna show my soft side or weak side to them... sorry guys i had to leave without telling u peepx... because i knew some will ask mi to stay... tat will make mi feel more worst then now... then leh... i know i'm coughing and having my flu... i shouldn't even smoke... but my chest hurts... sucks isn't it? damn farking sickness... right now i'm listening to brandy's have u ever... lyrics is very meaningful... i really hope i can see those staff and promotors... i know ah tey and the rest of the audio staff will be farking busy ... because i left and no one will be around the counter to look after things... hope the part time promotor can do something for them... also hope the cashier will still get sales even without me... expecially sandy... sandy gan ma... know i haven ask u to be my gan ma... but in my heart u are already like a god mother ler...just now tat song i was refering to? here's the lyrics...
Chorus]
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

.... nice isn't it? hmmm cough cough* dies~ really sick of medicine ler... pui pui pui pui pui... sucks man... but still have to eat... things should be slowing down... no more job... no more rushing... hope i can rest and go shopping around... maybe play abit... to cover up for my two months... in about 22 days... o level results will be out... scary leh... i alway think have i done my best? have i done it the way i t should be? will my two months of hard work give mi the results other take months to get? some times i alway like to believe in god... i alway pray tat i'll pass.. LOL!! childish ma? who cares... every one has a god in their mind... not only me... tml my jie jie going to dye my hair for me ler... shiok neh... weeeeeeeeeeeeee make it gold brown or watever colour my sister choses... wahahaha... cough cough* dies* very quickly months have passed... 3 months? after o's? still recalling how i live my life during the two months of hard work... no life at all... to the extend of sleeping with my books.... omg.... i'll nv do tat again... if i get into poly... i'll study constantly... promise... i wanna get to uni... i wanna earn money next time... no cert no money... lol... ok ba... time for mi to take my medicine... i'll leave it to tml to blog more...

aN will alway miss best denki... good bye my friends... but i'll still visit u guys... if u ever read this... :P

2005-02-04T23:34:00.000+08:00

wo yao si ler~~~ very sick... tml then blog ba...back to finish wat i haven finish... now it's 4.24 a.m. i slept and woke up... now feeling so sick and tired... but i just can't sleep... so decided to be more yong gong and finish the blog for today... today kevin tee our officer ask mi go downstairs smoke... whoa he just ask mi to out of best... no need go back door... lol... so we went down...then he was like in a pause trying to gather wat he wanted to tell me... not biao bai la... LOL!!! it's about our contact extension... he wanted to tell me tat not all of us will be able to stay... which means ahah might not be staying... because of his work attitude... i also understand... but if ahah not working ler... i also don't wan work ba... buddy forever though... i don't pang seh my lao da lol... so if he doesn't gets to stay... i'll leave as well... gonna miss cashier sandy and all the promotors there... sad isn't it?... but nvm... i can alway visit them... then was kind of thinking wat i am going to do after quitting (maybe) LOL!!! though of getting a admin work life... trying to experience as many types of job... hehe... today got new promotor in my counter wor... shiok seh... now i don't really have to stay in the counter ler... can run around best denki at least... no need to stay in a restricted area... also right now chatting with joey... she ar short still can play billard leh... LOL!!! also thinking about tml work... if i'm too sick maybe thinking of a off tml... if i'm still as sick la... think i'll be alright by tml afternoon... ok ba guess i'll leave it to tml to blog ler... hope ahah gets to stay so i don't have to leave so soon... ahah msged mi about another sales job just now... i mean if i wan to get into sales line i rather stay at best... i guess i'll explain to him tml ba... gone* aN rox :P

2005-02-04T01:35:00.000+08:00

hMmmMmM so sian leh... haizzzZz now at kimage... ahah now cutting his hair... LOL!!! hair become bush again... just finish watching elektra.... oooo nice and not nice also... unrealistic... but effect wise not bad... now leh... so sian... wat should i type for bloggy today? muahahaha... heard many poly students having alot of project wor... so sad ~ i'm having a great time now... lol... spending money and working and slacking~ weeeeeeeeeeeee so sad for those who are enjoying like mi... laugh with me muahahahaha... evil aN :p ....i'll continue later again :p get something to play or do with my lappy....backie... ahah got himself a great hair cut... and i got myself a good gel... hehe... tml is havoc day... gonna make my hair go as crazy as it can be... then leh... was still quite angry over ahah and pei... these two buddy... really boils my blood... but those who doesn't make my blood boil... aren't call true friends.... because i wouldn't even bother to get angry over some punk or friends who doesn't really affect mi... i am who i am because my friends were there... and thanks to them... my mindset gets more and more better as day passes by... then i came home and was chatting with some friends.... and still recalling my conversation with pris... but was kind of angry still so wasn't really in the mood to chat... i feel tat my relationship with my family is getting bad to worst... sad isn't it? i'm suppose to be the pillor of the house... but yet i lose my temper on them... which i still think i wasn't at fault... today i called my aunt... one who is very mature in thinking... told her my case... she agreed to me...? she can see my point of view but y not my mum... ooooooooo my phone rang... guess who? whoa my 15 years buddy!!! hehe... right now i jus hope my family life turns out well... as for love life... i think i'll leave it to the gods... whether there will be any angel flyng down to me... and spoiling their wings... and nv leave me... funny story i adapted from another blog of my friend.... ok ba i'll go sleep ler... nites peepx...

2005-02-03T05:07:00.000+08:00

Bloggy~ LoL three or two days ler... hehe was looking forward to type out wat ever happens these few days... tml is off neh... weeeeeeeeeeee going to sp and then ahah going to buy his cloths ler... then maybe go k box? i wanted to go for so long wor... no one bring mi go la... sad lol... let's start with monday... i didn't go to the funeral... cos i woke up real late... so didn't wan to rush there... and even if i rush there they would have left... so instead i stayed at home... till about 6? then went to meet ahah... then meet with pei... smoke eat and play with my lappy at mac... went to look for some things but didn't buy a thing... so went to century find ahah... smoke a while then i decide to go for a movie alone as usual... but this stupid show pei was introducing to mi... sucks to the fullest... totally sleepy show for me... almost slept during the show... then walked home alone... tuesday leh... went to work as usual... ahah told mi about the promotor act... he snatched a customer over from him and a new staff... in the end on wednesday he got warned... so hack care la... haiz tml i continue k? feeling sleepy... hmmm now smoking alone at mac... ahah bought his stuff... about 300 lor... spend so much over 2 shirt one jacket one jean and one pair of leather shoes... very alike like wat i bought last year... but actually he look alot more style right now ler... but he just have to do something with his brain... wat's style without brains... or rather with a brain and nv use it... got so angry over things... he was late even after i was already late... in the end his eyes are red... y? wore his contact lens... so i scolded him... because he nv bring a single thing for his eyes just in case anything happens... so got him home to get his stuff be4 heading out... after heading out... on the train... still scolding him la... then i recall where we were going... Sp... he was suppose to arrange everything he should do... like getting a guide for us... or else go there so big how to find the things we wanna see... really fed up... so drop off at bugis... and went to pray and have our lunch... in the end got back to tampines ler... bought his cloths and stuffs.... now i alone there waiting for him to come... and head for our movie... actually going to the movie alone de... but decide to ask him along... these few days i keep on getting angry... y? who knows... can't really get along with many ppl... but those i know well gets it from mi... maybe vent my anger on them... shouldn't do it ba... but can't control... valentine coming ler... no dates leh... sad... still have to work on the day... sulks* damn staff of best denki... but nvm no have dates wat... got date i comfirm take mc and hack care on work... lol... then today morning i actually chat on the phone with my ex... funny though... broke off because of a certain reason ba... it wasn't tat we aren't suitable... but because she lied... so i decide to stop the relationship... sad isn't it? like her alot though haha... then she's as alway cute... but older then mi... then was asking about her life ? how's she is getting along... then told her my case these few weeks...she actually advise quite alot.... in the end the chat didn't last real long... because she was going to school and i'm heading to sleep... nows a day so sian... got stead also sian... no stead also sian... so might as well don't have... maybe at the mean time only... now like siao listening to techno at mac with my tiny speakers lol... siao ler... yao ar yao ar yao ar yao... LoL!!! stupid ahah so slow... wan wack him ler... LoL!!! hmmmm ok ba today's blog long enuff ler... tml then blog ba bb...

2005-01-31T01:45:00.000+08:00

HMmm haiz... today sad day as usual... y? rush through my shopping again... though i could walk around and get some cloths... and my watch specially... i'm very angry... my father don't like to go shopping mall... y? cos cannot smoke... i told him in tat case don't come... it will not only waste my time and also make mi angry... i buy cloths once a year... y just they let mi chose slowly and decide properly? some times i feel tat they seriously suck? i hardly can rest and go out with them? i hardly get to buy cloths? it seems a busy day...work from morning till 5.30 then had to rush down to meet them... in the very end got so angry over things... i walked off... after lecturing enuff... went off to meet pei and ahah... was flaring at them... sorry... in the end... went off to draw some money... oooo my salary come ler wor... hardly see 4 digits in my acc... but now left 3 digits ler... draw out 600 for my mum... tml ahah opening bank acc... then he heading for work.. then i'll head for sim lim to get my rams... and check out some prices for ahah... should be heading home to rest... kind of boring right? go out alone... but nvm... i'm alway lonely... cos crazy girl don't wan pei mi... all her fault... nv pei mi today... but she is kind enuff to pei mi right now... chat ba... think too much... just now i went for a movie alone... but nvm... the show was like... farking lame and boring... whose fault? pei lor... say nice nice... -.- stupid aeroplane show... today i think i won't be blogging alot... very sad... haiz... guess i'll continue tml... maybe on the train? hao ba... wan aN... tian mi mi de mong...

2005-01-29T02:12:00.000+08:00

hmMm right now on the car alone... everyone is outside sitting... having very bad headache... so came on to the car to rest... but just can't seems to keep myself still... so decide to type something... so typed today's blog first.... and edit later.... it seems so hot in here but i don't know y i don't sweat at all.... feeling so lonely ouside.... sad isn't it? just now went to my baby sitter house... she's sick... haiz... thinking about the funeral... almost drop tears... because i'm so scare she might leave us anytime... but removed tat idea tat she might leave us... so chat with her more... she complained tat her leg are very "sour" so massage for her... also she's having bad sore throat.... also she was frying things for new year... those tibits she alway make... but she have to go through the pain of mixing the correct mixture to even start cooking.... which will hurt her arm... so decide to get a mixer for her asap.... today i brought my win xp disc to work... to help one of the promotors to set up his system... to hell knows his pc spoilt after installation... my fault? i don't know... wat will i get tml? from him? scolding? so be it... was trying to be kind... also the cashier sandy gave mi money... y? because i alway give her sales... didn't wanted to take at all.... but so many ppl there... no choice just take ba... maybe get her something also... then also wanna make her my god mother... so kind to me... hmmm but tat's later part ba... 6th coming ler... might get my own code... maybe attitude of other's will change...who cares... i'm having a very bad headache now... y i am not sure... bang my head on da wall... it seem serious about the promotors laptop...ahah voice like very serious... my god... haiz... feel so bad... my fault partly... did i act smart? haiz... problems one after another... listening to the same old song... seriously think that song is so nice.... and now i'm at the airport waiting for them to reach... hmmm lonely still but wat can i do? i'm alway like tat? haha here comes my baby sitter's son... hmmm actually offed my laptop and went off... to send my baby sitter's daughter off... she lives in aussie... nice place eh? hehe i'mma move there if i had money.... now leh... lying on my cosy bed... thinking of her muahahaha... crazy girl... then leh... actually wat i did just now was to take some photos with them... wah seh... damn paiseh leh... keep saying i qiang jing tou... also keep saying i shuai... omg... damn paiseh... many ppl there leh... i not shuai ba... crazy girl bu ai wo ler... then leh... chat with some of the kids there... going through their youth day.. one of them kind of in a bad mood i guess... maybe because of his age... and his elder brother's age... just 3 years different and both are guys... kind of crash in terms of attitude... i think the elder changed alot... alot more like a gangster i guess... just don't show it out i guess... and the younger one also going through wat the elder one haf gone through... but i guess this will take time until they actually become more mature and understand tat all these are just growing up... then spoke to the two other little girl... going through major exams... guess it is going to be hard for them... then the little cute boy...omg so cute.. lol.. but cries too much... haha... kids will be kids... then leh... upon sending them home... we all made way home... sat on the bus alone... thinking of crazy ppl... lol... then met up with ahah for a while... mi my sis and ahah... walked towards my block... and this dumb cat keep following us... lol... my sister scare of cat ma... then chase it off... the guai lan cat... act cute look here and there... then come back to us again... this repeated for i think 20 over times? until i chased it off and went into the lift... today at the funeral... i act damn dao... lol... damn i not shuai at all~~~~ y so many ppl say i shuai leh... lol... become humble ler... siao... shuai ppl... still can't get crazy girl... tml i'll be working afternoon shift... 31st i'll be off... so i'll be going to the chu bing... also leh will be getting my pay on the day... can pay my mummy ler... on the 3rd also taking off... to get some things i need and visit rp open house... also getting ahah's cloths... help ma... ppl wan stylo ler... so can't let him die himself right? see i so good... becomes bhb now... then leh will be trying to take off on valentine day... or else! i'll take mc... who cares... valentine day is nv a work day... hao ba... feeling so hungry now... will be heading for bed soon... then see how lor... tml then blog hao ma? will be missing crazy girl... lala... sot ler la... nites...

2005-01-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

28th of jan. 2005... my mum's grand father passed away... guess she is kind of sad... every now and then i remind myself not to forget those whom have given mi wat i am of today... without these ppl... i wouldn't be who i am right now... tat inculdes someone who hates mi also... too many ppl have pass by me... too many have left mi... and too many have not step into my heart... thinking whether i'm the problem or maybe they aren't faithed to enter... lol... i need someone right now... but i don't know whom... right now i'm listening to david tao zhe - ai hen jian dan... issit really tat easy? or issit tat i just don't recongise other ppl's feeling for mi... or rather do not seriously take them in... maybe tat's y yi wei bu yao wo ler... TA BU AI WO LER~~ kekekeke... had been disturbing her since don't know when... now i know y ppl say the love tat last the longest is the one tat u just can't seems to get... right now wat am i looking for... wat am i doing... and wat i should do? i don't know... results not out... no new friends... and also no path to walk... so i'm kind of stuck here... need a hand from someone... someone special... but who... haha writen so much and the who doesn't comes out... but who cares... noone wanna be with mi ler... keke... zong jiu yi sheng yi ge ren... even if the world comes down i'll still be waiting... till the day i die i'll still be waiting... for? someone... haha

ok back to wat i should write here... life... is still as boring... just like blogging... unless someone or something happens.... i'll alway be typing the same old thing here... omg... i'm smoking more then i should... or rather getting more addicted to it... i wanna stop but everyone around me seems to stop mi from doing tat... i need to do something about it... quick... promised myself to quit... so i'll do it... u know? i'm more addicted to this song... chu ci zhi wai... from van fan... y? don't know... maybe da lyric seems very meaningful to mi... or rather i just like it... i'll post the lyric here? before tat plz do a right click and change the encoding to unicode again...

Say Goodnight 晚安谢谢你陪我一整个夜晚
Close your eyes, be quiet 我明白你有自己的不安
很多来不及我不曾看见我只遇见你的现在
不管你接受或离开 I hope to stay for a while
除此之外要你明白你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾你的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody 我确定我会在不会走开
So Goodbye 晚安舍不得看你觉得不自在
It's alright, I'm fine 看起来这故事会写不完
很多差一点你没有发现你只认识我的现
不管你留下或走开 I'm gonna stay for a while
除此之外我要你明白你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待其实都还算愉快
除此之外非常遗憾你的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody 我确定我会在
除此之外我还在等待你的心将为我敞开
But if you need somebody 你知道我会在不会走开不会走开

these lyrics nv left my mind... haha... today... went to collect my jeans... hmmm still have two more things i need to get for new year... sstill thinking about new year... am i wearing too outstanding cloths? or am i just thinking too much... today i went to see my black pants... the type of pant which working class wears... slim cut seems nice for mi... also went over to look at another pair of jeans from levis... their low waist cut seems sucky for the design... so didn't even wanted to look further... also i haven seriously try to wear my cloths in one full suit... i'm scare they don't match... omg... today is 28th ler... one month... 30 days.. results!
it's scaring me as the date draws near... also 3 more days... pay day.. and my ipod is coming... it seems like the ipod is looking for it's owner on valentine day... guess who? i'm not sure either... maybe give it out... or keep it for myself... today bought one vcd... even when i'm so broke. i bought vcds... y itchy hand lor... wanna watch ma... right now i feel tat i seriously suck at wooing girls... muahahahaha i will shy de ma... :P nvm watever u ppl wanna comment i know de... thick skin... lol... wat is shown on the surface might not be the inner self... on da 3rd of feb... ahah and mi going rp open house... also heading to get some cloths for ahah... he need serious styling... leave it all up to him ba... my sweaty palms are getting bad to worst... but i guess there's nothing i can do about it... so be it then... it's been so many days since i last do my hair up... y? lazy? or izzit because i felt no reason to do it..? work is getting more and more slack... so should i look good for work? or just be a messy king and left my hair messed up... muahaha who caREs! no one notices mi also... short ugly poor and useless... lol... zhi bei time~ lol... ok la... blog super long ler la... time to sleep... tml working morning... tat stupid cockroach also work morning leh... if i'm late... he surely scold mi until i seh... *bring insecticide* muahahaha evil`aN :p hao la... need to sleep ler... huo hui you qi... lao fu zhuo ye~~

2005-01-27T01:14:00.000+08:00

Two days since i last blogged.... hmmmm comments from hui xian? hmmm seems so bad to write something about mich on my blog.... but who cares... if she dont like it... just msg mi.. i'll delete the post... also... i nv mean any harm with wat i write... hmmmm today work seems pass faster then yesterday... maybe because i had many breaks? and also looking forward to my shopping after work for my cloths? in the very end... wat did i get ? everyone having problems with coming to meet mi... mummy's grand father passing away... i don't blame her... my sis friend got hospitalise... so should i blame her? dad won't shop with mi... so had to shop alone... in the end... my mum came without going to see my great grand father i guess... rushed through all my shopping for cloths... hate tat... but got things i like... don't like to shop with her when she nags too... but didn't manage to get the last two piece i wanted.... my watch and one more pants.... let's see wat did i get for new year... kind of weird for new year though... bought two long sleeve shirt... those business kind? but it's coloured... nice but chosen by them.... wanted to get a tuxedo instead... sad mummy says other day... also got myself a pair of jeans.... and one pair of leather shoes as well... but now i'm troubled whether to wear my new shoe to work or not? because my old shoe can still be wore... and working with my new pair of shoes... i'm scare tat i'll scratch it.... so i decided not to wear it for work.... hehe... guess my new year is messed up ler ba... no need to pai nian at all but got new cloths... hmmmm most of my cloths all formal wear leh... haizzz don't know whether i'll make a fool out of myself anot... so young wanna wear cloths tat the working class wears... will ppl talk bad about mi? or will ppl discriminate mi... but who cares... i'll still wear them... hehe... omg... i love the watch... so nice... but have to wait ler... sad haiz... mummy sure take her time then buy for mi de.... damn... hmmmm no watch i feel no security to my hands... haha maybe because i'm too used to wearing a heavy watch... hmmmm too used to her ? recently i think back on my relationships... whether it is with my family or with my friends or even my exs.... do i make a good friend good family member and a good bf? i doubt myself... now wat? get a life? haha who cares... let mi get into a poly i'm happy enuff ler... will nv give up on my studies ever... oh almost forget to add... remember i added my mum's grand father going to pass away? who knows when i reached there everyone is like gathering outside instead with my great grand father... laughing and talking about like new year... wan kind of shock to see them in tat state... kind of sucks... regret rushing so badly... even wanted my mum to head there first be4 i buy my things... but nvm... bygone be bygone... lastly two more days my baby sitter's daughter is going back to aussie ler... sad to say i don't have enuff time for them... sad to say i'm just too occupied by work... now i tell myself... i'll not be in sales line... because i wan my social and family life... i wan my life... not work all day and end up having no time spent with my family... heard i kind of blog very long... but you xing ren hui du wan de... hehe... but i guess many ppl just browses through but nvm... thankx for reading also... mum is going to organise a trip to genting... guess this is the time i can spend some time with them... also pay day is gonna come and go by so smoothly... my pay goes everywhere but not to mi.... -.- -.- -.- ... 600 goes to my mum for my laptop... 220 goes to my ipod... and the rest is my bills.... there goes my whole month pay... sad hor? but nvm... i'm contented... with my lappy... my watch and all my new cloths... maybe for the month haha... i wanna get a new home theater ba... my hi fi spoilt ler... :( nvm old ler... hehe throw and buy new one.... but mummy will scold if i throw... so i'll pass it to her to throw... muahahhaa evil plan*
guess i have alot of things to cover........ but hope i can just squeeze out abit to cover the things i wan... and hope my last months pay can cover a new desktop... so i can give my sister my old pc... and get myself a new pc... muahahaha... crazy dude... :P was chatting with jas? kind of struggle of wat i wanna type... when she left... i just said i was blogging... haha.. hope she doesn't reads this.... tml working afternoon wor... was playing lord of the rings... damn hard to win... lol... stupid game guide tells mi easy to win... don't care... i'll nv be defeated in games! :P muz win = muz win... lol.... omg... my lips are so dry... need to drink alot of water.... or else lips will peel off and hurt alot.... pray***** i'm so hungry now... and guess wat... i ate so much just now... like hungry ghost... ate one huge bowl of mee... and another extra bowl of dumplings... -.- hungry~ jiu ming ar~.. later go steal cookies and eat... today i sell another mp3 tat i can draw commission... i total draw 50$ ler.... hope i can sell more... to cover more... lol... greedy but not at least like my sister.... being unrealistic and greedy is the same... hope she'll wake up in time to know tat she isn't young ler... and stop wasting time on useless things.... youth isn't for u to have fun only... old man's thinking but who cares... she is older then mi and she can't think the right way.... or rather see clearly of wat she wants.... hmmm it's already 27th of jan.... feb 28 is my results release date.... one month more.... scary? yup... it isn't the exam tat i fear but the results... can i make a miracle out of my junk brain? can i do it with just two months hard work? can i drop my total L1R4 to 20+++ ? with my prelims scoring 38? will i do it some times i wonder... even be4 my exams... i think twice... but i still tried my best... my mum will be very disappointed if i fail.... but i'll pray hard tat she doesn't... or else i'll be disappointed as well... hao ba... i blogged for like 30 mins ler?? long enuff ler... or else ppl complain i type so much nonsense....

I need a miracle that works on exams results* LoL... also on the girl i like ba.... :P

2005-01-25T03:28:00.000+08:00

3.23a.m. rolling around my bed? just can't get to sleep... and tml work starts at 9... hmmm wat am i thinking at this moment? listening to jolin's [ Ni hai Ai wo Ma ]
kind of sad everytime i hear this song... it seems tat alot of songs... came out after mi and her broke up... i mean "her"... many meaningful songs just came out... and it alway hurts when i hear them... expecially when the lyrics seriously hits mi... or rather i was just too blinded at tat moment? i knew i shouldn't hurt her... but y did i do it... now i know how she felt when i threaten her on sucide... like wat another "heT" is trying to do... it feels irritating and also at the same time painful to see someone u loved once do tat... how i wish time can turn back... how i wish i had let her go at the time when i should... maybe today on the roads... i meet her... i don't get a hateful look... or a evil glance... dang shi de wo, wei she mor yao na mor you zhi? hate myself for being so childish... maybe tat's y i dress differently from other youngster... and have a big gap to youngsters... sometimes i just hate myself for being tat way.... wish i could be childish like last time... wish i don't need to be angry over some mature things... hate to be angry of ppl whom a 17teen youngster shouldn't.... these few days many things happened... at least to mi alone... firstly was a brk up... then was a rejection... lol... thirdly was threaten by sucide from mich... lastly is living alone is very lonely... pass 5 days really almost killed mi... i need company! but who shall be there for mi... who can i depend on? i don't know... getting into another relationship so fast? nah don't be crazy... maybe i'll just be single for another 9 months... then slowly look again? y muz i wait for 9 months some times i wonder... lol... but who cares... any pretty girl around wants mi i'll take LoL... lamer~ the best is the lady tat i served just now... whoa pretty man... drool!!! LOL.... not mi alone bio girls hor... so many colleague bio also!!!!... omg... i'm thinking how am i suppose to work tml... 9a.m. ? holy shit...

TML!!! i'mma pull my mummy and get mi some cloths... crazy of mi to think out something like wearing a tuxedo on new year...should i? i'm not sure... like the way i look when i wear something formal... hate the child look of mine... but izzit abit too out of the waY? over doing things? i'm scare of being laughed at... i'm scare of making a fool out of myself... but i like wearing formal garment... omg... way should i do... awwwwwwwww my mummy will nv object... but she will nv agree either... she would just say... buy wat u want... -.- -.- -.- -.- -.-

buy jeans again? buy t-shirts again? dress like a 15 year old kid? i hate being a 15 year old kid... but i'm suppose to be 18 lol... but wat does a 18 wear... sigh... somebody scream~~~~~ LoL.... i'm going towards the dark side... [star wars]
lamer~ hmmmm today blog also quite long ler leh... kind of like 20 mins ler? lol but normally i will take around 1 hour LOl!!! lame but i don't care... i'll just do the things i like... like typing my feelings out... now my hands so "sour" Yi wei it's all ur fault hor!! LoL... another girl tat i'll nv understand... [ blue - girl i'll nv understand ] this songs applies accordingly... lol... results are coming out in exactly one month six days... scary? i think it's more scary then o's exams... lol... i'm so addicted to fan yi chen's chu ci zhi wai.... i just can't take tat song out of my head... it's so meaningful... cold air is blowing right at mi... it's freezing now... someone out there feeling tat too? someone sleeping feeling tat too? or someone awake feeling tat too?... haha i don't know... all these things are in my mind... u know? i can't stop my brain from thinking... it just go on and on... without resting... only way i can do it... is with medication... make myself sleep... haiz unhealthy yeah... but wat can i do... i need to sleep... hmmmm hey i'mma stop her leh ba... hope i can sleep tonight... without thinking of her maybe? haha... every moment i'm left alone with sad songs... or when some special days... i'll feel tat... y isn't she there... to share that moment with mi... but can't blame her... it's my fault afterall... ok then i'mma sleep... nights guys... bb... miss yeah peepx lots... wait for mi to get my rest... and i'll try to remake the old history of #Luve ... =) gones

2005-01-23T23:46:00.000+08:00

Was thinking whether i should blog today... actually nothing for mi to blog today... just wanna leave something here for u guys to read lol... mich msged mi many times in friendster... abit kind of looking for a patch but maybe just wanna tell mi off... if u wanna tell mi off i gladly take it... but if it's a patch then i can tell u it is no point to patch because even if we somehow patch... how long will it take for another brk up... it isn't because of certain matters tat cause mi to decide to brk... it's because we aren't suitable for each other... tat's important... to mi at least... u wanna hold on to everything i'm fine... but don't make mi hold on to everything... did tat once... hurt someone hard... don't wanna make another mistake... it's my fault but u just have to take it...

hmmmm today work quite ok ba... passed by so quickly... maybe because i didn't notice the time... lol seem so busy... lOl... but nvm... i'mma head for bed now... anything else we talk about it in tml's blog... lol...

2005-01-23T02:22:00.000+08:00

Be4 u start reading... right click and click encoding... under more, change it to unicode... or else u won't be able to read the chinese letters
如果有一天　我們再見面
時間會不會倒退一點
也許我們都忽略
互相傷害之外的感覺
如果哪一天　我們都發現
好聚好散不過是種遮掩
如果我們沒發現
就給彼此多一點時間

I'll alway remember this song lyrics.... because many of a times i think back of all my ex... maybe one day i walk on the streets i see them... it might be mi singing this phrase back to them? haha... but some times i just hope tat i can find someone i seriously like and suits mi best... so i can be with her for as long as i can... so i can forget my side of the memories... was chatting with a beautiful lady... but claim she isn't... i believe it might be the lack of confident? ha.. then i though of this song.. from 光良／品冠 - 掌心 <-- song name... hehe the chorus goes this way...

攤開妳的掌心　讓我看看妳
玄之又玄的秘密
看看裡面是不是真的有我有妳
攤開妳的掌心　握緊我的愛情
不要如此用力　這樣會握痛握碎我的心
也割破妳的掌妳的心

oo sweet ain't it? for u girl.. u know who u are if u are reading this...
Also tml work again ler... today really starve very badly... once i get my pay i'll make sure i eat until the world comes down LoL... and sorry guys i know i type also of "lol" but it's a habit of mine... lol... see LOL!!! right now i'm listening to soft music... sad/love songs? also thinking whom i am thinking now? LoL u girl :P
just now u said this? "dont be so nice to me.. i wont remember"
as long as i remember will do... lol... eh? who do i not be nice to? let mi guess... my enermy? alot though but not many chance to treat them badly lol... hmmmm today is the 23th... just 8 more days... it's gonna be pay day... my first ever pay day since i started working... gonna get my laptop a upgrade of rams and also buy myself a ipod pink xD crazy woot woot... then also gonna pay my mum lots of cash for my laptop... damn... there goes my pay... LoL... but who cares... really love my lappy now xD ... ooo it seems tat i feel like putting up more song lyrics leh... lol... another one for u peepx... expecially u girl :P
爱你等于拥有一片天空任何风吹草动
都有你存在其中自然而然的轻松
一路到夏天的尾声我所谓到过于激动
我们有笑容我们曾心动不再是无动于衷
无条件为你不顾明天的安稳
为你变坚强相信你的眼神
不敢想不敢问有一天坏的可能
无条件为你放弃单独的旅程
为你坚强就不怕牺牲
我的灵魂如此沸腾
为我爱的人喜欢复杂还是习惯单纯
我愿尽力完成你在我心中几分
难以形容的责任爱一个人付出才会完整
无条件越爱就越深永远不分啊...

whoa i can't find the song i really want... so i post another one tat i like... nvm next time then i post it.. LoL.. it has meaning so i will find it... hehe... many ppl say i'm heartless brking off with mich... many ppl say i let her down... many say i did not do my best... and many say i suck... but do they really know wat is struggling within mi? nope ba... not say i'm not at fault... but i hope ppl would just try to understand mi... although i did try i just couldn't continue... u are not meant to be mine... nor do my heart accept u... choosy it might seem but its the only way u know who u really want.... hope things go well... ha... ok time for mi to sleep... took mi so long to finish my blog for the day...
Lastly thank you all for reading....

aN

2005-01-22T04:21:00.000+08:00

Hey sup... hmmm feeling kind of down... just now got rejected ba... kind of in the state tat i'm depress lol... but who cares... no body ba... LoL... eh... wat am i going to write today?... haha today very usual ba? went for lunch with my baby sitter.. omg her leg swollen... hope she gets well soon... if not i'mma bring her to the hospital... then leh... work as usual... damn bored... was like laughing because both of my senior was like quarreling...? lol funny the way they talk to each other... also kind of lonely these few days... it's asured! my sister won't be home... my mom went for a holiday with her company and my dad went fishing... damn! no dinner no nothing..... i'mma starve badly... lol just like i did just now... hehe didn't wanna leave my pc as i was chatting with the one who rejected mi... lol... had gastric pain but nvm... at least i get to chat with her i guess.... had much fun and also knew i wasn't the one... but nvm... wish her all the best still... loneliness kills~ omg... all my friends are like so busy? but wat can i do ? hope i can have some free time to go out with them... also really enjoyed my night... after chatting with her... went out to smoke... feeling so down... haha but really very long time nv sit under the block with ahah talk cock... enjoy drinks and then go home sleep... my type of night life rather then chionging ? ROFL!!! chionging sucks... tat type of night life not only make mi sweat but also endangers mi to drugs also all sort of stuff... lol also went supper with my sis and my god bro.. together with ahah... talk alot of crap for mi... and notice tat my god bro became so thin after entering the army... i'm nv going to let myself become a bamboo like him... i'mma eat alot and drink mass gainers to maintain my size... but if i can push army life further up my life... i would... rather enjoy myself then go into the army to shou ku... be4 tat i watch romance of the three kindom... super nice man... zhu ge liang rox... clever!! my idol... rather then sly or taufik... :P although they might be a myth but i rather like their story... zhong guo li shi yuan^ yuan liu chuan... :P chinese getting bad to worst... worst to horrible... lol also results are coming out soon... omg my fear are coming... fear i don't make it... fear i make it but not the course i wan... fear i make it but not good enuff?... guess this is it... result should be out on 28/2/05 ba... right now i'm on my bed typing on my lappy... whoa nv imagine it is so shiok to have a lappy when i can use it everywhere~ weee... also paid my hp bills... hope they connect my line back asap... feel so out of the world... my working contact is gonna end soon... 6th of feb... really enjoyed myself working there... made many friends and also learned many things from them... right now i'm listening to van fan yi chen de chu ci zhi wai... super nice song... love it... describe how i feel also... tat day i went to the poly open house... went to ngee ann first... like the environment... then went to nyp... didn't really like the environment though... seems abit sucky... like a old school shopping center... with lots of shop houses... then i went home shortly... yesterday mummy came into my room... while i was reading the catelogues of the courses i like... then sat down and actually came to the common booklet.... info communication... like the course and mummy also said it has a good future... if i am suppose to make it... i will join np's info comm... hehe yanqin remember hor... become my senior buddy leh... lol... ok ba today i'll write till here... falling asleep very soon... the wind is blowing into my eyes... can't keep them open...

For mich. if u read this msg... plz listen carefully... don't do silly things to harm urself... it won't change the way we are... because i don't wanna hurt u further tat's y i choice to brk up... also if u have anything to tell mi... just msg mi when i log in to msn...

Alot to say but i have to stop... thank you all for reading... and also wishing the muslims happy hari raya... hehe... for the chinese... new year is around the corner hor... but sad to say i can't take oranges and pai nian... cos of my great grand mother who passed away... so one year can't do it... but nvm... as long as u guys enjoy ur new year... i'll be there wishing u peepx a happy new year as well...

I make joke around... but i'm serious about you...

2005-01-17T02:12:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm back after two days to complete wat i promised... to write on my love life...

The story begin like this... When i got into my sec 3 life... this girl came into my life... how? it was funny how we actually got to get each other's attention... it was on one of the chinese class on da second day... when this girl had to answer a question... and when she finished... i actually said "i couldn't hear!" lol... she had to stand up and answer again... bam* she slam her hands on the table and gave mi a sharp stare... whoa... scary lol... after tat i actually tried to get her phone number... out of my expectation... she gave mi... after tat day... the moment i reached home... i left a msg... didn't expect to get a reply... i went to bath... and when i came back... one msg receive! LOL... so happy so started to msg her back and forth until 1-2a.m. unexpected...... she had a bf already... only the next day when i was taking the bus i saw her and the guy walked to school together...

a "friend's" girl.... asked her how's her relationship with him? LOL.. she told mi he was really damn boring LOL!!! 6 months together and all they did was went to one movie and nv ever held hands be4.... shi bai? maybe too old fashion ba.... then the worst things i did was to ask whether she would be my gf instead of his? she agreed!!! omg.... jump off my bed... so damn happy and excited... omg... tat was on the 14/2/02 valentine day? didn't expect to made her mine on tat day? omg... went out the up coming saturday and kissed the first time in the cinema... slowly after tat going home together almost everyday... then slowly staying over my house for a few hours be4 sending her home... next she invited mi to her new house warming... met her parents... didn't knew we were couples... also we hide from their parents many things... slowly one year passed... made some friends though ahah's brother? knew a girl... was curious over a new girl... almost broke off with her becos of the new girl... she found out and seriously very shock.... but she forgived mi... be4 she found out... i actually wrote a letter to break up with her... as i write my tears just couldn't stop... but rolled down my cheek... in the end... couldn't let her go... but instead tore the letter up and gave up on the new girl...

she forgived mi...... even after i betrayed her... so i tried my best to please her... having lunch and doing alot more then wat i did previously.... then............... we did wat other couple wouldn't do be4 marriage.... she knew it was wrong but she allowed it... all because she loved mi so much.... then she knew it was wrong to continue the unhealthy relationship... she asked for a brk up... at the point of time i didn't knew wat was on her mind... so i threaten to kill myself if she leave mi... twice thrice... she didn't take the excuse any more... she left... cry to bed every night... didn't had a single goal in life anymore... everyday just sighing away... saw her but just couldn't help but walked off.... ever hid my face on the table and weep... then slowly she had another guy... a good guy... but was a filrt... had many many ex's and left them all for another girl... then i tried to break them off by telling the guy wat mi and her did be4... but he didn't brk off with her... after a few more days... they broke off... heard he had another girl... but she actually changed her attitude towards mi... eyes full of hatred... also treat mi very harshly... but i actually didn't really fight back...slowly n level passed.... new year came... went back for o levels... more harsh she got... got some guys to fight mi... scold mi.. slapped mi once... then slowly verbal fightings...

my story ended.... feelings faded... memories is mind... but love will alway be there... thanx to her... i learned so much in life... learned to let things go when i had too... mature alot more with experience from the break ups... did so much soul searching... did so much changes in life... looks and attitude... also changed the way i treat all my stead.... treated them with more respect and also treated them with more care... although she hates mi still... now or forever? it's ok... thanx to her i learn so much... but i'll nv forgive myself for hurting her so much... haiz ok nvm... life still has to go on... with or without her... i'll still live on... maybe 10-15 years later we meet on the street... she might just forgive mi for wat i did...

ok back to my life ba.... now working very sian... my counter so hot... omg... fark the management... lol don't on the aircon to a lower degree... then also thinking tat haiz... my salary still haven come yet... 15 more days.... god bless mi plz... also i'm heading to bugis to pray for my results... heading for nyp np and tp's open houses.... to learn more about the courses... if possible i'll enter poly too? then move on else where... ok ba time for mi to take my beauty sleep ler... till the next time i'm free i'll promise to blog... hehe... nites guys....

2005-01-15T03:06:00.000+08:00

Hey yo yo yo yo lol... see i so eng leh... using my laptop on the bed... damn shiok no need sit on the hard chair... lol suddenly feel like it to blog ba? LoL miss u guys seriously lots but can't help but to say sorry.. have to work to pay off my debt to my mother.. for my laptop lor.... work so hard just for my laptop actually hehe... finally my wish come true ler... got my laptop... something tat i like... and also something useful to mi...(xian char bor at mac de tools hor) lol... no la... just feel tat having a laptop more convinent for mi... can use anywhere... also lucky tat i bought my o2 earlier during 2004... i can use tat as wireless gprs dial up also... hehe... omg so many things to buy... new year ler wor... hehe 17 years old also ler... started studying on my driving basic ler... hahahahahaha my sister haven pass yet wor... i swear to pass my license faster then her LoL... now leh actually is nothing to do de... chatting with jaffe and my sister on the computer lor... lol lame righT? hmmmm also listening to some sad songs lol... thinking of someone i shouldn't be thinking of... life changed becos of her... thank you for making mi a better person... although u hate mi but i won't hate u...

hehe ok end of sad story... :P got chance i'll write my own love story up to let u peepx know ba...

hehe work have nv been so easy be4... lol so easy pass time wor? everyday go talk cock sing song play maijong nia... today help kaven clng plasma... omg feel so bad cos i give the deal to kaven... the rest of the promotor very jealous... cos he cling two plasma today ler... sorry peepx... right now i listening to jolin song wor... Ni hai ai wo mA? nope ba lol... y no such song as ni hai hen wo ma? LoL...

yesterday got really piss off by my mum... she got my dental appointment wrong and dare to threaten mi to go... in the end got a bad lecture from mi... then she apolergize.. then also today i ask tey for off day cos i wanna go for poly's open hosue... haiz i very scare my o's fail leh.... sure disappoint my mother... haiz maybe on the 19th i heading for simlim so go there pray as well... si wang god hear my prayers...

now got this damn song from kang kang... lol but nice leh... didn't expect him to sing so well... also feel tat i miss k box lots... lol long time nv go sing ler leh... hehe admins plz be notify ahah treating us to k box =X LoL no la when we get our pay then go together k?

Ok i'mma end soon... late ler know? tml got work still... also nothing much i can write today... hehe guys plz be more regular ba... wait a while more until i don't work any more then i can come often pei u peepx.. ok gone*

2004-12-27T16:22:00.000+08:00

Drunk as i expect it to be... i was drunk again on christmas... having alot of problems and also being sporting myself.. i drank alot of the alcohol... ended up with hang overs for two days.... sometimes i ask myself... wat is this problem i have... y even if i have everything... i'll still be unhappy... izzit because i lost someone i really need? or izzit tat i haven really found someone truely suitable for me?... i don't know.. maybe i'm too choosy... or izzit tat i am just tat special one tat need another special person so tat i could feel happy ever again? one special one left... will nv return... during the bbq... i asked ahah to sms her... she said she had nv ever knew someone by the name of mine... haha... like expected i knew wat she was going to say... i know she's angry and hates mi to the core... LoLx y so fan jian leh? also don't know... maybe just fan jian lor... ok let's move on to the bbq....

B B Q

lol expect noone to give mi any present... but there was some... one from yi wei.. one from michelle and one from hui jing... really like the feeling of tearing up presents... like pei said... deprive of presents for many years... lol although my parents didn't buy mi presents for the past 12 years? i'm ok with it... because i know they had tried to give mi the best they could... already.... and in actual fact... i have things tat other ppl don't have.. or rather not many ppl have... my character... my life style... and also the things tat i have... are alway on the higher range... man... ahah really wore PCK suit come... guilty tat i couldn't wear santa suit... it was like too itchy to wear.... also the bbq was successful to me... at least ppl are having fun... and also ate food they needed.... LoL wah lau... joyce said " stop filrting around with lemon lah, u nv see michelle like so moody?"
nah she trust mi enuff... hehe... filrting is part of life girl.. and like ur nick says... i'm not the one with attitude but it's u ppl who have the attitude against me... nah i think this part u are wrong... if u listen to ppl and don't be so rebelious... i think life wouldn't be so fan... when i was younger at age of 14... also like u rebelious over everything... didn't wan to listen to wat my parents had to say... attittude is alway in every person... but controling the attitude isn't as easy as said... u know u are stubborn... but so wat u know u are stubborn... u don't change... i mean i don't expect a soothing joyce but i guess at the least listen half... quarrel the other half.. LoL... ok i'll leave tat to u to understand slowly... maturity doesn't come overnight.... =)

W O R K

LoL my work... still so slack as alway... damn wish i have a more challenging job but not too tired... many ppl say my pay is low... but i guess so wat it's low... at least i have a job... many ppl are still looking for jobs... thank god i got one early... =) my work place... the ppl are so friendly LoL... but abit political ba... amongs the promotors.. hehe... last few days got one promotor from creative wor... a girl... 19 year de.. LoL three days she was there and three days she had lunch with mi... LoL maybe just the connection between us ba... LOL like her as a friend.... tat's all... almost still in contact with her...

L I F E

My life now... so boring.. work sleep work sleep... lol... today i'm off so wanna enjoy abit nor... go for a movie or two... also eat nicer food... hehe once i get my pay i'mma go for good food... deprived of spending money on food ler.... hehe... family life... slowly changing ba... sister looking for job.. dad stop getting drunk... mummy don't scream around... hehe tat's good isn't it? xD... looking damn forward to my birthday wor... coming soon u know? xD so if u read this.. GET ME A PIECE OF CAKE plz~ :P

okok i guess i am going to leave my house le... don't wanna be late... hehe
gonna blog again tonight if i have time.... xD love u guys lots...

YOUR'S EVER POWERFUL KING
x|aO`aN

2004-12-16T01:11:00.000+08:00

Meaowww~ backie keke.... I have many things i wanna share with u guys today... maybe i'll start with my life?? room is getting abit messy then usual ler... lol also my love life seems to be drifting apart.... maybe cos of work then abit out of place? haizz if this relationship is not going to work out i'm not going to take chances anymore ba... hmmmm family sort of slow down.... not so much quarrels ler ba... now i feel tat the home cooked food taste nicer then outside food... hehe... hmmm also so much to do so much so much... hope i can slow down my pace? LOL...

My work life.... whoa.. third day of work ler... sick of slacking at the work place... so sian... yesterday ar got this customer... omg haiz so embarass leh...
he say i handsome then say i look like jap/korean model... then say if he got model company sure ask mi go be one of his model.... the problem is he say it so loud... omg... then so paiseh lor... omg.... omg omg.... then upcoming alot of events man.. tired.... saturday i'm on full time... and sunday is another full time at my old work place... finally ahah agreed to go along with mi... i like my old work place... very nice place with alot of nice ppl... the 3 aunties all treat mi like a god son wor... hehe.. i really miss them as my god mom.. hehe... last time when i work if i hungry.. they will try they best to get mi food... keke...

oh well it's time for me to sleep... tml work again.... slack!!!! LOL.

[#LuVe BBQ 25/12 @ Pasir Ris] and YOU are invited (Santa Giving Out Gifts Interested Pm ahah or Pe|` )

2004-12-13T06:36:00.000+08:00

OMG !!! SHIT!!! xD so early in the morning.. 6.30? LOL!! omg i found out tat i have been destroying all my gym trainings!!! bloody smoking... omg ok time to quit.. muahaha i wan my figure back..!!!! URGENT !!! man.. was training with my dumb bell.... omg... i actually can't finish 400 times of my right hand!!!! omg... sucks man !!! fark fark fark.. ok i'll promise myself to quit... omg THIS IS SO FARKING IRRITATING!!! sigh... :(

Today is my first day of work at best denki wor... omg happy and excited... until cannot sleep LOL!!! mummy came into the room to teach mi on the interest part... also she scolded mi for not sleeping xD... nvm she's alway concern about mi... sigh hope i don't disappoint her like my sister did... and to sister.. i pray tat u come to ur senses fast... don't wanna see the family alway in quarrels and fightings...

whoa whoa whoa... today's monday... omg... i still haven paid my bills !!! $256 LEH!!! die ar... lol today take pocket money all pay to bills ler... soon muz eat ikan billis lol.. worst don't even have ikan billis to EAT!!! omg how can i every survive without food... ROAR~~ lol... man i'll start training hard on my body and also quit smoking... muahahhaa... tml i'll go for a job in the morning... xD who wanna come along? LOL... then hmmm sunday got to go back to where i work last time... raffles town club.. good pay... i also miss my bosses there.. they treat mi so good XD... hehe ok la wanna go bath ler leh.. later wan go work... promise tml i will go run!!!! hehe... then maybe on sunday i'll go gym for an hour or so?

To everyone who reads my blog... my birthday is coming and having a bbq on 25th for an early celebration... hehe 31st is my birthday wor... who wanna go count down together..?

2004-12-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

WHOA!!!!
BLOGGIE~~~~~~~~~~~~ Hehe miss u lots man... haven been writing or rather blogging... have been busy searching for jobs.. finally !!!! finished my exams... and also found myself TWO jobs... muahahaha.. i'm evil earning money~~~
so many things have happen these few months... muahhaha.. i really hope tat my two months of hard work pays... haiz.. now leh.. got gf ler.. got job ler.. wat's next? LOL... ok i'mma think hard and blog it tml... hmmmm have been very very flashes of moment i had with her... omg... y are they back? am i no longer angry with her? oh fark LOL!! but nvm... so be it...

hmmmmm eh my channel.. WAH LAU~~ u all nv come my channel nvm lor.. sua i clear list muahaha find new comers... hmmmm new peepx = more topics... old peepx = boring topics... nvm lol old and new is the best.. talk cock no. 1... lol...

Hmmm My life... wah seh... super sian leh.. monday start work... then sunday is another different job... wah i'mma earn more then i wan to... so to get all the things i need... omg... lao tian ar.. xD also 25th events is coming in about 13 days... i'm so excited ~~~ bbq with my friends and also my family at the other pit.... hope things turn out right... also right now hope the job is good...

ok peepx i need a smoke ler.. kekeke hope i can quit this as well... hmmm meaow ciaozzZz

2004-10-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

mmm. template changed. i like the fonts here, yeah. hopefully An likes it. 've yet to ask for his comments yet. Sorry peeps, I forgot write down all ya blog addresses. so i gotta ask from you again. once i get `em all i'll update again. btw, An is still studyin` hard for his Os. All the best to him den.
Pei

2004-09-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

hey peepx. an's on a studying holiday so he wont be around to blog this few weeks. at least a month or so. so here wont be updated, but continue to miss us yeah? chatters in the channel will forever exist in our hearts.
Cheers, Pei.

2004-09-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

mi will be studying and away for two months.. hope u ppl enjoy ur stay

2004-08-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

The LuVe committee is will be holding a special event… 100% Couple! This event is to promote more ladies and gentlemen to get together for that special feeling. Without further a do,

I will now brief you about the rules and regulations.

Contestants must be - 100% couple
- 100% Loving
- 100% True to one another
- 100% from #LuVe!
How to vote :
All chatters of #LuVe gets 2 votes.
Each vote is worth 2 points.
All admins (acess level 450 and above) gets 2 votes.
Each vote is worth 3 points.
Each vote is able to be voted to different contestants.
Scores will be tabulated by counting the points.
Cast your votes by msnoting x-Pe|-x.
[state whether if you’re and admin, and who you cast your votes to.]
For those without registered nick, you can visit our blogsite ( http://luve-
galaxynet.blogspot.com ) and leave your votes by the tagboard.
Please cast your votes before 31st August 2004.

I will now present to you the contestants =D The order will go according to which couple that tied their knots together first.

- Lawry »-(¯`v´¯)-» Bb`wAwA
- Huix[ian] »-(¯`v´¯)-» t3a`zZz
- X|aO`aN »-(¯`v´¯)-» s`dEex

Prizes and Awards
The winning couple will get $10 from x-Pe|-x.
One lucky contestant that voted for the winning couple will be
chosen, and get an access level of 450 from #LuVe.
The access will be with you till the next clearlist.

So, chatters of LuVe … what are you waiting for?! Authenticate your registered nick and msnote who you think deserves to be the 100% Couple to x-Pe|-x now!

*All casts will be kept disclosed due to privacy.
Contestants are not allowed to participate in this competition.
The lucky contestant must acknowledge his price within 2 days of result resulting date.
Failure to comply will result in the lost of access level.

Voting of event commences now!!

2004-08-23T08:07:00.000+08:00

Introduction of the day:

Hmmm dear blog.. sometimes things are very hard to predict... 2 days be4 i met her... i was telling ahah tat i didn't wanted a stead right now... 2days later... we are together.... although we had great time this past one week... but i am very guilty for her slacking in studies... i am very concern about her future... and my own as well... maybe it is just becos i haven adapt to the changes of having someone in my life suddenly.. it just came suddenly... many things have happened this one week... many problems have surface and many things i have though it through... whether it's family or mi and her.. i hope tat we all can get over this together...

Channel:

The peak have decrease very tremendously... maybe it's becos of mi attached? and also mi not free for quite some times.... the upcoming 2 months... i will be even more and more busy with o levels... i am looking very forward in passing my o levels... so i will have to bring my comp out and study real hard....

Love Life:

I have found my other half... and hope tat we can last for as long as we can.... i find her very fun and very compromising... but tat wasn't wat i want... i wan her to expect somethings from mi... expecting her to be abit demanding.... but nvm.. hehe as long as we love each other then ok already...

School Life:

Mi right now really have to buck up alot alot... so much tat i have to give up every leisure time i have... and i hope tat she will understand my position and also ppl in the channel... my o level cert means alot to mi which will offer mi my wish at the end of it... so plz plz hope u ppl understand mi k?..

Family Life:

My family ar?... hopeless lah.. everyone keep quarreling... for no correct reason... y are they so childish? i don't know... my aunt is sick... very sick... i have to spend time with her as well as spending time studying.. i wonder how am i going to handle the rest of my friends, family, love ones, and also most importantly myself... hope i don't break down be4 i take my o's...

Ok then... i suppose i have to stop here ler... alot of work and studies to be made.. mi go study then rest then study again... maybe god bless u ppl in everything u do...

2004-08-15T16:16:00.000+08:00

+•· [x`aNx] + [s`deEx] l0vës y0ü `15o8` ·•+

Today is the day i meet moi dear wor =xXxXXx keke.... then ar keke the way we got together very funny ar... but i don't care how funny it was.. as long as she's with mi jiu can ler...
Then ar... keke later going to meet her go see fire works lor... hehe but raining leh.. don't know still got fire works anot leh... then hmmm hmmm keke LoVe u 4eva deEz =x

Hee channel tat day got peak again wor.. 50 ppl... but now lesser ler.. cos i lazy ma... :P bleahzz
then now channel xs change system lor.. one 499 the rest under ahah... i know alot of admin complain i give such system lor.. but the admins actually didn't do much ba.. some only come and park and chat which i think any other xs holder can do.. unless ahah and pei who are helping mi do the blog and channel xs... hmmm ya lor... keke..

i guess i wanna end today's blog with I love u sindee truely wor... keke... looking forward in our life together...

+•· [x`aNx] + [s`deEx] l0vës y0ü `15o8` ·•+

2004-07-26T01:15:00.002+08:00

hmmmm uh oh.... opps... lala... die... so long nv blog ler neh... who wan scold mi leh??... haha hmmmmmmmmmmm?????? lol eh... don't know... these few weeks alot of things happening... firstly... let's start with da channel... peak dropping to about 20 ler hor... keke opps my fault again ba... so lazy to ask ppl join neh... who wan help wo leh?... then xs list have drop to 33 users ler.. no longer 35 nor... then then found out alot of things about the ppl in the channel.... hmmm long time no have new ppl to meet lor... keke i think muz find new group of ppl to meet ler... haha.. then hmmm secondly these few weeks went out with joyce and party a few times lor.. then also observe alot of things about them... hmmmm thirdly i think it's just about mi and xiao lian quarrel lor... anyway this matter will stop.. with abusing of access or not peace ba...

My own life......

still so boring and lonely... very messy ba... so many problems and events coming in without warning... i think event first ba... tat day kanna wack lor... after tat moi father call ah gong then call ppl down... then tat poor fellow... ya now leh the school also know moi background ler... then it's like another changed life.. hmmm then my room so messy lah.... I WANNA CLEAN MY ROOM... but i lazy neh... keke ok lah promise this thursday will clean up then saturday invite u all over for steamboat nor... then y life so boring and lonely leh? cos single ba... single too long ler... longing for a relationship... but just cannot find someone i like... haha or rather my expectation high ba.... then bored is becos every weekend no place go lor... go out with the same group and doing the same thing.... then tat day went sparks with them... okok lah not bad... but very sia suey.. dance like shit ownself also don't know... nvm i shall nv go dance liao... haiz.....right now i feeling very moody.... dont' know y maybe cos i remember things i don't wan to remember.. and also xiang tong ler some things i have nv though of be4... someone loved mi till the end and i just didn't notice... as well i let her down... but nvm it's over anyway.. let past be past and move on to my future... o levels is coming... my blogging might even stall for months... i guess i will move my computer out of my room soon.. and then chiong studies ler... i know it's going to be a hard one but i'm looking forward to my holidays lor... keke =D hmmm... y my life so messy leh? hmmm cos room messy... ppl own mi money... i own ppl money... then school work alot also haven do... then alot of problems in school... or rather i feel trouble... then my family also very messy... mother sister quarrel then very irritated... mi and the whole family also so piss of... mother keeps on irritating mi.. i know it's concern but it still irritates mi lor... my sister also don't wan help... father also dont' do a thing.. haizzz i haven visit my baby sitter for a long time ler... i really miss her... i hope she is doing fine... i think i will visit her on tuesday... and i hope i fullfil wat i say.... sorry i am not perfect.... but i am who and wat i am already... don't try to change mi...... i guess i am going to stop here... hope everyone stay happy and cheerful lor.....

2004-07-26T01:15:00.001+08:00

2004-07-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

2004-07-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

hoho... i know many ppl are going to scold mi cos i haven been a responsible owner.... for the past three or four weeks i very busy ar... cos o levels chinese ar... o level this and that until i no time or no mood to blog lor... apolergizes from mi lor.. it's partly my laziness... dui bu qi wor everyone... then hmmm let's start off with the channel ba... maybe it's my fault or izzit everyone's fault ba... the peak is really going down lor..hmmm hope u ppl do my a favour lor.. be more reg plzz... hmmm okok i'mma do my part soon.. give mi till saturday i will get many ppl to come k... keke... then channel list from now on will nv pass the limit of 33 xs holder... then hmmm... move on to my life ba... everything like in a stall? i'm like moving in circles lor... nothing much in my life happening ba... evryday go school come back sleep go school sleep again and again.... how i hope something changes and i'mma have something fresh to do... oh ya.. recently change my internet to starhub ler... actually starhub also not bad wor.. not like rumours alway say will lag lor... then also got myself a new graphic card... then tml going to buy myself a guitar.. maybe the guitar would be another fresh start for mi ba... then i guess there isn't someone i can be with ba... maybe only my friends would be with mi LOLx... girls? don't know haha... maybe i'mma turn into a monk soon LOLX.... haizz.... my room very messy leh... still the same.. laziness lor... lazy to pack... maybe i clear it all up one afternoon ba... hmmmm recently cut my hair ler wor... lots and lots of ppl commented tat it look alot better then be4 ler... keke... but i still like my prevoous hair cos i don't feel so naked wor... LOLX... hmmmmm actually alot of things wanna tell u all de... but i got too many.. don't know which to start... hmmm how about with my love life... LOLX ok nothing to say about my love life cos no one love mi LOLx... hmmm my sister recently broke up with her bf... i mean she is 20 yet she don't understand the meaning of *aN ending is just another new beginning*... she just couldn't accept the fact tat they have broken up ler... i guess i don't really have the mood to write more lor... hmmm i'm going to end here ba... bro and sis of Luve plz take good care of urself... till the next time i blog.. thanks for reading :P

2004-06-06T03:16:00.000+08:00

OMG... it's been so long? i haven been blogging? holy shit... y no one remind mi leh... haizZz...ok o levels chinese is over... one big stone off my mind man... wah seh i didn't know i so good boi neh... actually studied the whole week for chinese wor... then ermmm alot of things have happen lor... between couples between friends and even between familys... good or bad doesn't matter becos the things tat happen had it reasons... it's call fate LoLx... hmmmm wat are the good things tat happen to mi leh?... ermmm o's over? wah seh i tell u all ar.. i was so scare and nervous lor... omg i even panic on the first paper leh... omG i scare i fail but nvm take also take ler cannot turn back also... so see how lor the results... then ermmm bad things is i still don't have a girl friend hoho... no lah it's not a bad thing it's a good thing i'm single as well... recently i found out ar... alot of ppl now opening up to mi liao wor... ppl who dao mi previously actually chat with mi and joke? maybe this is call ice breaking ba... tat day went crazy ar... from bugis run to selegie... stupid elmo and ahah suggestion... but nv long time nv exercise ler so run lor... then met lawry... holy shit? didn't know he was such a playful guy wor... i though xiao an is the lamest but he can fight sia... hoho... hmmm up coming event of Luve is ahah birthday... admin of Luve wor muz celebrate nice nice ma... haha invite until so many ppl come... keke wahaha he is dead on tat day... birthday bash nv die nvm we make him drunk LoLx...recently ahah made a webby for LuVe wor... nice nice de but sad case the company maintaining their server so cannot see also... haiZz then nvm lor wait till the next time i can see ler i tell u guys nor... wanna complain about u ppl leh... channel peak dropping ler still don't help...~ haha ok nvm thanks to those regular Luve is alive... hmmm it's late at nite i'm infront of my pc typing nonsense which are for ppl to read... hope u all don't mind lor.. i type alot of nonsense leh... hmmmm recently i also pierce two extra ear hole on my left ear... now got 4 ear hole ler... keke oh ya... everytime i nv tell u guys how i'm doing wor.. i'm doing fine.. still alive and jumping... keke and then not long ago i found out i'm very light liao leh... 55 kg for 167.. might eat more ler... so i can become bigger size and fitter hoho... okok ba late ler i go sleep... tml going to meet lemon ar... keke and tat hui xian really deserve a scolding... ask mi go meet her she nv pick up phone... wanna die ar... call police catch u then u know... okok i go sleep ler.. good nite bro and sis of Luve...

*WiLl tHeRe Be A dAy i GeT uR hEaRt?*

2004-05-21T02:13:00.000+08:00

Hmmm dear blog... i miss you haha... long time nv blog ler... from the time i last blog hmmm life kind of in a mess lor... exams also fail.. this also fail that also fail.. haizZzz sigh for life sigh for the women i love and sigh for keeping it a secret.... haha don't care lah... life still goes on lor... recently omg LuVe have grow alot ler... omg tat day peak was at 60? holy shit... i didn't know i would be able to do it.. lots of thanks to those who helped and supported mi throughout... hmmmm these few days go out meet ian they all also sian lar... alway slack de lor... sian also because they so loving alway got someone to hug or have someone by their side... hmmmm hmmmm hmmmm don't know leh.... aiya life sucks right now lor... family also sucks school also sucks then friends also sucks... haiZzz god damn it lah... love life also sucks... don't know y so suey lah... hmmmm these few days also very moody lor... just super moodless lah... sit there and stare blindly into thin air... like dumb ass lor.... then slowly will sad de... then my heart so heavy... jiu become moody ler... tat day ar brought prata home leh... wanted to eat de lor... so hungry... but i saw my mother haven eat.. so give to her... who knows she don't wan to eat... she just throw away... i was like so piss lor... ji tuo stand there and hong kan ppl liao... then went back my room also rot.... =.= really fed up... hmmm don't talk about it ler lor... tat day went to visit my baby sitter ar.... she's someone whom i shall nv ever disrespect lor... someone whom took care of mi someone who fed mi someone whom taught mi life skills... she's not even blood related to mi... so i pray and pray tat she's alway healthy lor... alot ppl also don't really like to chat with older ppl... i also don't like... but to her i will nv dislike lor... i can sit there for hours just chatting to my baby sitter.... if i can chose i would give up 10 years of my life for her to live another 10 years... haha watch too much tv ler... hmmm then aiya tat day play bike fell down ar... then leg bleeding lor... bobian walk home... siao next day still went roller blade... as none of u know.. i'm good on roller blade... so i jump off stairs lor... who knows leg so pain.. land tat time couldn't take it so fell down again lor... hmmmm i have been asking myself... is there no one other then "her" tat would love mi tat much? is there no one else?? haha who knows maybe it's only her... but i know she will nv ever or even think of mi... then recently this girl came into my life and mess everything up then left in a hurry... would she ever give mi a damn? nah... don't think so bas... she's attracted to her dream guy... someone i won't ever be... haizz.... nvm back to my life... studies sucks lor... i now have to work really hard ler... o levels muz pass!!! ok... not going to dream ler.. it's time to study ler... hmmm... ok i guess i have nothing to write this time ler... it's time to close my internet diary and go to sleep... forget this girl tat cause chaos to my life.... haizZzz

*y u not happy u wan to act as if u happy?*

2004-05-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm dear blog... ermmm today wednesday liao...hmmm i really wonder sia izzit fate or izzit i bad at jioing girls leh... haha i found out actually got ppl read my blog wor... xie xie ppl who reads it lor..ermmm these few days ar very bored lor cos exams ma... wah today maths paper 2 nv bring calculater... in the end bobian use brain think.. but still some question cannot do lor...er hai i got rejected lor tat day haha... but i got over it liao... haha life still muz go on ar... hmmm very grateful lor got ppl wanna help with with my o levels... jasmine thanks alot i see u on saturday bas... hoho today got joke about singapore idol sia... suddenly machiam all wanna go register for it lor... lol if ppl in LuVe ar i comfirm go lor sporting about ma... lolXxx...tat day i went to converse and saw this paair of shoe and a sweater ar... omg so nice wor... haiz i muz wait until next week then can buy cos my mother quite tight these few days so i wait lor... hmmm haha yesterday i download this song name pretty boy.... wah really nice leh... hai when will my girl sing tat song to mi leh?? lol god knows lor...yesterday go town with joyling they all ar... cos they wanna an wei wo cos i tio reject lol... plzzz lo ppl one girl cannot kill mi one lor... lol then joyling brought a friend with her wor... wah lau really cannot make it lor.... very despo like tat wor.. haha but nvm still small girl so nvm... ermmm exams ar exams very headache lor so i can't really write alot on the blog.. haha okok i will leave it to ur thoughs bas... this is where i end ler... good nite ppl..

2004-05-09T16:22:00.000+08:00

Today very moody lor.. cos of a question... "how important am i to you?" haiz will this answer affect whether u will accept mi ma? i don't know leh... haiz moody cos worry about the outcome? or worry tio reject? haha i think is the outcome lor... Then this morning woke up with my legs all numb and painful.. haiz see lah act monkey lor play stunt some more lah... the very same person told mi " Can u take care of urself?" hmmm i can't? maybe lor cos u nv take care of mi wat... haizz... hmm tml jiu exam ler and i haven study yet so nvm lah...have been slacking with ian and the other usual party lor... real bored nows a day even meeting them also nothing much to do lor... anyway also can't slack as much as be4 ler cos o levels coming ler... hmmm and also very fan these few days cos of someone again lol... i also don't know wat to write about the channel lor... izzit heading to a dead end? a dead channel? after four years? omg i can't believe all my effort is going down the drain... haiz... i'm now listening to clay aiken :the way... this song is so nice very meaningful lor... then haiya still moody later going for movie alone again lor...or else is buy vcd to watch cos got one show about the tian long ba bu very nice wor... don't know y these few days siao about wu gong shows... siao ler lah.. i wonder whether is there actually ppl reading my blog anot lor... hmmm some times i find god so unfair man... y so suey alway can't get the girl i like.. haiz... then was chatting with pei wen and yi wei... hmm both ask mi don't think so much ar so don't think lor... hmmm i think this is where i end lor.. hmm all the best to those who are taking exams and all those who are jioing ppl lol...

2004-05-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

Wo hui lai ler ta jia... i guess no one misses mi ba... so i make it short... it's good to be home man...Gan jue hao shuang ar LOL... no need to rot at home ler wor... lol.. these few days ar thank to a girl wor.. or else i will be dead be4 i even get online... so bored wor everyday slack at home... either watch tv or else sleep... like pig sia LOLx... Eh i was wondering how have u guys been without mi but it seems disappointed because alot of the regular not around ler... sad lor from a standard of 35 drop to 20 lor... so haizz hope they come back more often after the exams ba...eh... haha mi ar also having exams lor... now very guai liao everyday go school no more skipping neh... haha ermmm tat day ar my baby sitter son sick leh.. haiz very unhappy cos all the son and daughter of my baby sitter all very nice and good to mi one lor...ermmm after tat ar met with tooya and ian they all lor.. then i found out tat actually meeting so often becomes very bored lor... some more they organise ar haiyo machiam nv organise lor... no ppl come and then no actual thingy to do... but without these outing ian and joanna won't be together.. which is a good thing they are together... all the best then... ermmm then mi ar last few days whoa really almost died... hmmm then ar got new virus out leh.. becareful hor ppl... ermmm actually nothing much to write cos i haven been active so i will end it here lor.. till the next time bro and sis...

*Wo Hui Lai LeR*

2004-04-30T13:52:00.000+08:00

haiZzzz i'm back for the moment of 15mins LOL... i recently got suspended by singnet for downloading movies from a web site lor... very ke lian ar... then ar then ar haizZz everyday slack at home lor... rotting ler wahahaha... but nvm sooner or later i'm coming back ler..... then ar these few days very lonely lor... watch movie alone then some more eat dinner alone... pengZzzz dying ler... don't even know whether got channel outing anot lol... ermmm then ar also because exams coming so got to study also... haiz... now even my pc also cannot use cos i remove the hard disk just in case got police come wor.. lol...

these few days i have been thinking.. am i finding a girl for the sake of finding or because i'm getting bored of single life LOL... but who knows lol... hmmm life sucks without internet... living life is to chat chat chat and chat LOL...aiya type so fast until my fingers also suan ler... HELP..~~ then ar ermm these few days sms ppl lor... only thing i can do wat... haha... ke lian de x|aO`aN... ermmm ok gtg ler hope to blog again as soon as possible....!~~~~

*LiFe SuCkS wItHouT iNtErnEt Ar``~~*

2004-04-22T02:18:00.000+08:00

it's been long since i last wrote the blog... hmmm nows a day going to school feel like a burden but i still have to go no matter wat... hmmm some times i really feel like slacking at home but aiya bobian ma muz study lor.. and then these few days very lonely bored and boliao alone at home... if u ask mi y i'm lonely bored and boliao even though chatting on irc i also don't know haha... actually i feel tat this blog is more like my personal blog but it just inculde part of wat happen in LuVe...haha don't know lah just hope tat u guys support LuVe lor.. and also feel tat alot of ppl really slacking in joining ler... anyway i really don't know wat to blog today... i was suppose to blog yesterday.. was so busy playing game until 2 3 o'clock.. then got to sleep ma... yesterday i went to bishan with ian pei and rui... haiya quite boliao there lor... but okok lah had fun with ian as usual... then when i came back to tamp tat time ar.. got to stop at seng kang... haiZzz so much memories... full of them... when i drop at seng kang.. i stare blankly at the condo... haiz tat place i once go will nv allow mi to enter... tat person i once loved will nv allow mi to love again... then i remember alot of things i done last time... so much.. i remember so clearly of tat day we broke.. it was on this raining morning... haiz she called for a break up and asked mi over one last time... when i reach it was raining so heavily... went directly into the house..... sat on the bed beside her and gave a sulky face... there and then tat xiao an is now no longer exist... the xiao an u guys see and hear is someone who doesn't cry nor feel heart aches... haizZz so much have pass... the place all changed... no more bus interchange no more hugs and kisses from her be4 i get on my bus... haha silly mi just thinking back is useless.. ermmm yesterday i also went for my dental appointment at national dental center... wah so painful leh tat dentist scrape... wah piang he like taking knife and slice mi sia... haha after tat my papa ar so good buy mi curry chicken rice... and also brought mi suger cane juice... wahaha sweet things rox as usual... then ar today... wah so sian leh got ppl ignore mi for three days... si bei dulan and sad lor.. don't even know wat i did to deserve tat... ask her also don't reply mi... sigh... then ar today play alot of game ar... should study more then i play ler... haiz this week so broke cos i buy game haha.. stupid mi... oh by the way guys friday there will be another outing organise by ian... hmmmm i think i ending the blog for today ler... tml there's school so good nite guys...

*hUi yI zHoNg ShI Hao De , kE Shi Wo hAi zAi XiAnG tA*

2004-04-18T15:20:00.000+08:00

today is sunday... hmmm haiz....for the past three days nv blog ar... sorry ppl wor.... ermmm hmmm past three days got good things got bad things happening to mi lor... ermmm... haha hx thanks for all lor... but leave tat someone alone bas lol....ermm aiya tat day ermm don't talk about past ler... ermm single life rox! LOL... then ar then ar yesterdays outing fun LOL.. aithough i was broke like don't know wat but it was fun lor... then ar having sore throat lor.. ian also wor... everyone take care hor.... don't fall sick... EH i found out a very shocking thing leh... IAN ar wah piang he from JC sia... lol i abit don't believe lor cos he nv go school de... how to believe leh? lol... today is sunday very sian day lor... haha actually intend to go out with someone de but she don't wan wor.. haha "someone" nvm larh friends also can go out de lor.. LOL... eh... yesterday ar we went to selegie play pool again... as usual one larh... haha then play half way i go meet tat ircger88 lor... with kwoky and marlin... then she keep saying sorry because she late by tat few mins haiyo... cannot ta han u all... a few mins is better the some other ppl who i meet can make mi wait one whole hour wor..then as i was walking back to find ian and all of them ar... joyling called mi lor... then met her walk with ircger88 and the rest to find ian they all then slowly si peh came lol.. got enuff ppl wor... then they go play pool again... but this time i didn't play much cos i was outside with joyling talking lor.. cos they don't want go in then i also cannot leave them there lor... i as the host got to take care of others also ma... so i sat outside with joyling and pei wen... chat and chat nonsense lah... then they went home... i went in and join in the other's lor..then then finish ler all went to LIPS lor outside plaza sing there sit and they all keep suaning mi cos i didn't wan to drink... then ian just order watever he wants for mi lor.. bobian i also paiseh change ma cos having sore throat but i drink still... then ate fries there... i hungry ma so eat abit faster.. then tio suan again.. haiZzZzzz.. then tooya went home as well as si pei lor.. left four ppl... sat there talk nonsense agani lol... after tat went to KOPITIAM... tat water tank ian ar... buey ta han... keep drinking and drink water... wah piang even mi also buey ta han liao... haha then we decided to play cards lor... so went to buy but don't have.. then we saw a guy and a beautiful girl lor.. tat guy SO DAMN nerdy wor... piang then he go buy cig. walk out tat time put on stick in the mouth and drop the cig.. piang... ian and mi luff like so loudly he paiseh walk away quickly leh... LOL... then walked to bugis ar... actually wanted to go lavander one to play pool in the end nv larh.. so instead we walk and walk... who knows we saw cheers so went there... piang got cards so we buy and sit outside to play lor... after a while ar ircger88 mother cor her lor.. ask her to go home wor... then she say play a while more then go.. all the rounds she lose wor... buey ta han... haha then ar we walk all the way to city hall there take Night rider lor... then mi and ahah's bus came first so we went off first... then ar the seats so hard sia... backside pain and cannot sleep... then keep trying to sleep lor... then go home sleep wake up then no more ler...haha...

now ar back to my life... these few days very sian lor.. single life still rox.. haha but still wants to settle down larh... haha then then i know tat someone don't like mi wor.. haha aiyo thankx hx for all wat she done lor.. xie xie ni kays...ermm some more wat ar ermm.. actually nothing larh cos i don't know wat i feel also... okok i stop here ler bas...

*bU zAi Hu Ni aI bU aI wO, wO zHi YaO nI KaI xIn*

2004-04-14T22:13:00.000+08:00

yoz i'm back keke... ermmm today ar BERY sian ar go school cos late for school wor... then then after school ar come back gastric again.... wah piang pain until i cannot stand up... hmmm then ate medicine and sleep lor.. wake up mother tell mi dental appointment next week so i tell her teeth pain neh then she say bobian.. i tell her tml pain don't go school ler wahaha.. ermm then ar then ar went online lor see fserfs and kwoky quarrel cos tat fserfs alway smell MOuth de anyhow say ppl xia lan -.-??""" sian after tat wrote a few testimonial for my sister and god elder brother lor... after tat i ate my dinner in my room.. wah today's dinner good wor... got braise duck wing leh... wahaha then ate my dinner ler chat with "someone" in msn very mean de she... then got ppl chui mi to write blog lor.. so i started blogging ermm... ? =X ermm actually today also nothing to write de just wanna ask this someone out lor... eh #LuVe today also quiet lor cos tat stupid net spilt keep coming then Q also si bei eng lah keep going to toilet for break LOL... then this someone ar computer also siao siao no sound wor LOL... aiya time to change a new pc bas... hao i think i end here ler... nIte ppl and take good care bro and sis of LuVe.... then ar i ask wanna ask someone for movie lor... but don't dare to ask leh...shy lor buey ta han myself also larh... then this somebody say just ask lor then i still don't dare to ask leh.. so i ask from here lor... tat nick Love is two.... For there is no me without you.... *HOPE * FAITH * LOVE * LUCK* in msn de saturday free for a movie anot

*wO xI huAn yI qI lAi tAnG ZaI nI shEn bIan , gEi wO yI gE Ji HuI Ke yI mA?*

2004-04-13T22:19:00.000+08:00

hmm today ar i sick... had bad gastric then was send home lor... after tat at home eat medicine ler then slept like oink oink... then when i wake up i so happi wor... actually alot ppl guan xin wo.. got so MANY and it's really like the window so small and tiny lol.. all ask mi to take care and ask mi about wat happen wor... back to where i was.. i sleeping then got two person sms mi wor.. one was a gong kia.. another one was a sister to mi older one larh very beautiful one... they ask mi wat happen also lor... hmmm then ate dinner .. damn sian cos can only eat porridge and veg... no taste one pui pui... XD then then ermmm... sat infront of thE pc to chat lor.. anyway alway chat with one person in msn then in #LuVe also lor...ermm i suppose it's almost all ba... ermm anyway many ppl asking wor who is the person i like LOL.. secret ma cannot anyhow say... anyway she also don't know will gib mi the chance anot lor... hor tat "someone"? LOLx...okok got to go i feeling damn high cos i ate my medicine and drank coffee at the same time...

*iF i hAvE To GivE yOu Up oN yoU, It woUlD bE oN tHe dAy mY hEaRt sTopS pUmpInG*

2004-04-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

meaow meaow haha... ermmm today ar same lor go to school come back go to school come back again.. everyday same thing de... sian tao yao ming... ermmm today ar i watch finish my anime legend of the condor heros... then was talking to someone about her love life lor.. it's about this guy whom she loved so much then she brk him now regret... then got another guy because talk to her a few times then think he crush on her then jio her lor.. so so i tell her u reject lor no point this guy is desperate =X.. ermm then next to another person lor... ermm that someone appear ler hoho.. someone very notie de... haha... ermmm so my day pass like normal day today ... ermmm wah today really got QI JI leh... "ahah" treat mi eat chocolate... wahaha he hardly treat de cos he not very rich so i very happi lor... then then ermmmm ermmm i saw stars then got one pian tai at the oppsite block taking pictures leh... then i shout HOI then person siam and siam further LOL... wahaha... these few days not very good lor but still in good mood cos of the person... not very good cos really dislike my family... all liars and rude ppl... so i ignore them by locking myself inside... ermmm ermmm guys if u can go and buy the legend of condor heros... the love story really sweet and touching... i hope to be the yang guo wor and waiting for the xiao long nu... wahaha but i'm not so shuai leh how? lol... okok i think i should end here ler ba... meaow meaow... take care guys..

*iF goD aSk mI wAt I wAnT nOw? I wOuLd Say I wAnT u and oNlY U*

2004-04-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

Hmmm today wahaha again the comic lol.. cannot stand lor keep laughing and laughing.. then ar today i'm still so happi and in a good mood lor... someone purposely gave mi a cor and left a miss cor there wor... so sweet leh.... i told tat person something ma "who the lucky guy u were talking on phone" then she gib mi a cor wor.. then ask mi lucky anot.. i told her VERY lucky wor.. u all don't know how it felt sia LOL.. ermm then next ar i went out to tampines mall again... but i went for only 20 mins... buy my VCD lor so sweet leh the story... ummm then then come back watch prince of eyupt.. also cartoon leh... wahahaha... umm today irc also nothing much lor only got that web site spammer virus... don't click hor guys.. EH today ermm aiya just very happi lor.. don't know how to express my happiness in words liao... then i ate macdonald for dinner lor.. wah i brought so much ar until i become like piggy (-00-)... oink oink and meaow meaow lol.. cannot say who lag hor oink oink? =X lol... ermm aiyo actually today i don't wan to blog de cos nothing to write here.. so i just write watever i can lor... okok hao i going to sleep ler nite nite ppl..

*xiao long nu : ni xi huan wo ma*
*yang guo : wo yi sheng yi shi zhi ai ni*
*xiao long nu : ni yuan yi yi sheng yi shi he wo zai yi qi ma?*

2004-04-11T13:28:00.000+08:00

Hoho i'm back, today damn good mood and as well shock.... ummm ok first start out with the channel outing... lol we went pool as usual for starters then see seta and pei play so "proly" haha... and then ar we went for food at tampines mall then tat's where all the movie started.... LOL then i walk into a cd shop wor... saw a animation i wanted so going to buy today lor..then i went back to tooya and company... so by the time they finish we left and took some photos by the lift and beside the food court... haha after tat we went down to tm mac but nothing to do so slack there lor... so we went to a corner ar then sit there took some lame photos about miya biting tooya LOL.. so funny anyway we will be making movies lol...ummmm haha and then we went inside tm again lol... went to the basement sat beside the water so started taking photos again lol... anyway in the end ian cor misty and ms`egg... but they also nv come down lor tua us lor.. so i missed seeing misty and ms`egg...so we went out to sit at mac again lor... waiting for ian god sister we actually sat there for one whole hour but lol nvm lah...haha so when she comes we all went back then mi and "ahah" with miya walk to 107 to eat lor.. actually is mi and "ahaH" eat only lol miya see us eat wor.. NOT i don't wan to let her eat is she don't wan to eat nor...then then walk home nor... umm ok now to my life ytd... hoho i was in so good mood lor.. cos cos haha alot of miracle wor... firstly someone called mi wor^^^ damn happi lor.. then then that someone still reply my sms leh.... wah i tell u all i really almost float liao lor... then then ar when i got home i saw the comic tat everyone had put in effort ar really made mi luffed... haha just happi lor rite now i'm still happi don't know y neh... haha aiya ok this is where i end lor...

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*wO xI hUaN dE rEn ChU xIan Ler, tA xI hUaN wO mA?*

2004-04-10T01:30:00.000+08:00

Hmmm... today ar really had fun at the outing lor.. first met muta pei pei and ian... then we went to paradis to had lunch... there ar everyone was like joking lor.. haha then after tat we went to america pool to play pool... then tooya jess and hui ling came... very dao one all nv say hi to mi... hmmm but nvm anyway after we play pool i went to lucky plaza... but walking half way ar met lemon wor... the one whom i was suppose to meet at lucky plaza keke... so chiao rite? don't know maybe fate ba... then we went ps to gai gai lor.. then look for food nor... in the end also no choice walk to paradis center to eat... at there ar they keep dian tat song qing tian wor... then the joke came when one of the song so old liao techno lai de really old ler played then like there the ppl eating also WAH PIANGZzz sianzZz like tat lol...then hor this lemon ar very cute de wor... lol turn the news paper finish ler then ask mi whether i wanna read... i was already reading with her when she was turning lol... after tat i went home lor cos "ahah" got to go ler.. i also paiseh ma she's with her friends so i left anyway lol... ermm while i was on the bus someone msg mi lor in the end she also nv reply liao... i got car sick so reach home tat time so dizzy.... there wasn't much ppl online but was like playing game with friends so nvm haha... nows a day very bored wake up so late then only half a spend half a day... haha tat day i was on a bus a saw many couple wor.. cos i was a lone on the bus so i suddenly felt abit despo haha cos feel lost becos no partner for my life but not for the sake then go steady lah haha... anyway i don't know whether got ppl read anot lor... a guest book will be up soon so do sign for us kk.... hao i'm going to sleep ler.. take care all my bro and sis..

*Wo Shi ZhEn De Hen xI HuAn Ni De, kE yI bU kE Yi Bu kE Yi Gei wO Yi Ke Ji Hui?*

2004-04-08T23:44:00.001+08:00

Ermm ermm die lah i don't know wat to start on today lo... Ermm ok start with my day lor... wake up VERY early lor... in the end bath finish everything liao sit on my bed gong gong stare at the pillow... haha then about 6.50 leave my house.. down the stairs saw a chio bu =X haha then reach school sit there eat my breakfast then saw another chio bu haha.. today can be name as chio bu day LOL.. ermm after tat as usual boring school day then went home lor...then when i got home got nothing to do so play nfs and o2jam lor... after tat ahah ask mi whether can take petrol from mi anot then until nite time then gib lor then VERy late ler still nv eat dinner so went supper with my best bro "ahah" then so so gong leh mi eat cheng teng and my pig organ soup together hot and cold in the end tummy ache T__T... haha after tat aiya just found out alot of things lor about someone who i think i don't even care.. which i actually do care haha.. someone complained yesterday y i didn't blog sorry guys i was really tired and had school today... ermm ermm bu zhi dao leh yesterday got ppl sad wor many ppl sad and moody... today tooya moody aiyo wei se mo tian xia so many ppl sad leh... tat's y i say if i ever pass away i don't to have funeral just burn mi and tat's it cos i don't want see ppl crying lor... ermmm anyway i'm sorry guys i am not really a good writer.. keke aiya i end here cos haf to cor someone ler.... someone i also don't know whether wanna talk to mi anot leh... hao good nite peeps miss yer and take cares bro and sis..

2004-04-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

Ermm ermm die lah i don't know wat to start on today lo... Ermm ok start with my day lor... wake up VERY early lor... in the end bath finish everything liao sit on my bed gong gong stare at the pillow... haha then about 7.50 leave my house.. down the stairs saw a chio bu =X haha then reach school sit there eat my breakfast then saw another chio bu haha.. today can be name as chio bu day LOL.. ermm after tat as usual boring school day then went home lor...then when i got home got nothing to do so play nfs and o2jam lor... after tat ahah ask mi whether can take petrol from mi anot then until nite time then gib lor then VERy late ler still nv eat dinner so went supper with my best bro "ahah" then so so gong leh mi eat cheng teng and my pig organ soup together hot and cold in the end tummy ache T__T... haha after tat aiya just found out alot of things lor about someone who i think i don't even care.. which i actually do care haha.. someone complained yesterday y i didn't blog sorry guys i was really tired and had school today... ermm ermm bu zhi dao leh yesterday got ppl sad wor many ppl sad and moody... today tooya moody aiyo wei se mo tian xia so many ppl sad leh... tat's y i say if i ever pass away i don't to have funeral just burn mi and tat's it cos i don't want see ppl crying lor... ermmm anyway i'm sorry guys i am not really a good writer.. keke aiya i end here cos haf to cor someone ler.... someone i also don't know whether wanna talk to mi anot leh... hao good nite peeps miss yer and take cares bro and sis..

2004-04-07T02:06:00.000+08:00

Ermm yoz i'm back.. second day wor... ermm today i chat with "wei" he said ermmm "42 ppl u got how much $$ ?" i replied "(12:40pm) (@x|aO^aN) i got a priceless happiness" haha ermmm don't know leh just think tat as long as one person is there i'm happi liao lor... even if it's just mi alone also happi ^^.. very bad day lor cos start of the day got scolded by my mother and then be4 tat had a bad nightmare... haiya don't know wat's happening lor.. today i saw ekin's quit msg "Its Hurts to Love someone & not to be Loved in Return;wat is most Painful is to Love someone and never find the Courage to let the person noe how you Feel" I think very true lor.. u guys out there better start telling the truth to the one u like... haha don't like mi no chance to tell liao.. anyway many ppl ask mi y i single for so long wor.. I also don't know leh... maybe the one i like doesn't like mi lor.. or maybe the right person have not appeared yet... haha oh btw guys #LuVe have been around for 4 yrs already... i wasn't the founder of it but instead was my Ex girl haha... only "ahah" know about it anyway lol... haha i don't know wat to say leh...

ok my life today ar... ermm ummm not bad lor... wahaha today i went to the song ka... i didn't even know my ah gong was a paikia... kao eh he was the head of all those paikia -.-""" so today they all come pay respect lor.. in the end my ah gong broke down haizZz.... bu zhi dao lah... ok i think tat's it for today... nothing much to write... nite to all ppl... #LuVe rox for all the supporters =X

2004-04-05T22:54:00.000+08:00

OK! this is my first post as the owner keke... i don't really know wat to write her leh cos first time blogging and it's for the channel....
ok here goes... someone said this "u so fierce to mi" "go away from mi".. haiz don't know leh today mi da owner very fierce wor don't know y maybe cos i store the anger too long ler ba... ermm from here i wan apologise to all lor... ermmm anyway today LuVe was at her new peak 42 ppl leh... real happy and also i think the channel is becoming more and more lively every moment...
anyway done with da channel now to myself... today ar didn't go school lor then cor tat "ahah" nv pick up my phone cor still sleeping, in the end ate breakfast alone and came home so early... saw the outer door not lock then scare tio.. i though my marmie wasn't out of the house yet so went down stairs and sit for one whole hour...in the end i went home and saw no one... -.-"" but i think was worth lah cos i study alone under the block... keke qi ji ar i study sia... when i got home i watched the movie "resident evil" wah piang so gross wor... but worth watching lor... ermmm sorry ar guys my english like shit got nor lor lah leh all those lol... ermmm after tat i watched "anger management" wah so funny buey ta han LOLzZz.... by the way i was suppose to sleep...ZzZzzzzz.. then read someones blog and find her very funni.. haha sorry wor ppl i not good at writing if i'm lame then dont' read k... keke... ermmm today i met kenji after reading and all those... wah he grow hair liao.. now yandao ler and also piang so tall... i damn zi bei of my height leh... :( then i see the person blog ar talk about star wor... THEN i remember about the shooting star i saw tat day... damn chio bu so short... these few days so bored and moody maybe cos my great grand mama pass away and float to heaven ler ba... anyway i'm really glad tat pei pei manage to set up the blog in such a short time.... ok i think that's it for today... LuVe rox thanx to all the supporters